KennetH NormaN - JournaL of HiM

Run 2012

2012-01-09T21:33:00.001+08:00

Goodness! Marathon is making me addictive. When you hear 42.195km, you will shiver. But who cares! I love the feel of accomplishments when i complete the marathon. You got to respect the distance. Don't be a fool!

After my last run which was nike, i tutup my running season. Thus happily i was enjoying all the foods till i got fugged by doctor for having high cholesterol. And then now in 2012, i just started back running with foundation again. Having bought new shoe (newton), i need to change or improve my style of running yang teramat cacat.

Cut the crap.

Fast forward now.

I have registered 2 runs.

To register & more info click here

Brooks Half Marathon it is. I doing 21km for this. With another good news, two of my 'heng dais' will be running as well. Hopefully they have registered. If not me going to disturb them!

To register & more info click here

PJ Dawn leh, i am going for 12km. I would want to mix my run this year.

Oh yes. Me is no those fellas that is gunning for personal best timing. My aim is to complete the run & enjoy the process. Possibly i look forward to improve my timing bit by bit with god's permission.

Yes 2 registered. Now hunting for other new runs.

Bai Bai

My Massage Rantings.

2012-01-05T22:34:00.000+08:00

Ooo lalaa..

Went in my dashboard to do some tweekings.. I'm so out of date. I can't figure out how to deal with all the advancement already. gosh! So i am having troubles to tweek my darn blog.

While i was flicking my (tounge) on the buttons, i went back to my older postings + read the comments left by you guys. My oh my! Been such a long time i have been in blogging scene.

Made me wanting to blog back again. What shall i write about?

Okay.

What about my new found certification? What? Sports Injury Massage is my certification i got. Oh & i am doing it part-time as well. So anyone wants a session do arrange timing with me as well yea. :P

Cool experience. What made me took? err.... one is helps my knowledge in coaching. Two is can earn extra income. Third is i can help people. Fourth is i can be spiritually focused, calm & giving. Fourth is giving my other half a good rub all the time. And so on......

There are tonnes of stylo massage in the market. What is the difference between Sports Massage & the normal massage you get in those so called spa, day spa or massage parlor?

image courtesy from http://www.bodyinmotion.co.uk.

image courtesy form http://www.dremassage.com/dremassage/massage.html

Sports Massage does not limit only for athletes. It is for all kind of aliens although it was initially developed for athletes only. This type of massage prepares your bodyf or optimal performance, recover after a big event, or function well during training. Not only when you are doing sports. It reflects in your working environments as well!

Sports Massage is one type of a sweedish massage. Therefore it is an oil based process + others term it as deep tissue massage.

Sports massage is also good for people with injuries, chronic pain or restricted range of motion.

What benefits that you will get from getting this massage?
1. Pain!!! be prepared it will be a hell lot of pain if you were not fixed in a long time.
2. It will enhance overall body awareness.
3. Speeding up recovery from muscular exertion. (whole day in office using mouse, facing computer, train too much & so on)
4. Stretch & relaxes your muscle.
5. Relieve muscle pain & spasms.
6. Flush out toxins that cause muscle stiffness & soreness.
7. Improve range of motion.
8. Relax the mind & body.
9. Get in touch with your body.

Normally the body parts with stiffness or have lactic acid build-up will feel the pain during the massage or some say feels good during & after the massage. Other body parts with no muscle stiffness will not feel the pain. Instead it will feel normal only.

This type of massage, you will feel good the follow few days or weeks. It also depends on how severe your condition is. It is best to do at least two week once.

Compare to the normal massage. The normal massage we get is normally feel bloody good during the session & day only. It is a feel good massage which i like as well. hehe. Plues when you see those advertisements, you will see the females either will have a flower on their ear & the expression is smiling. I can't remember did i smile all the way during the session or not. Normal massage normally will have fancy-fancy stylo mailo funny stuffs being placed on our body.

image courtesy from http://www.gracenglamour.com. (you see fancy stuff)


image courtesy from http://www.methodfitness.com Can you show your teeth & smile all the time during the session???


image courtesy from http://soulcurrymagazine.com/sc/spa-massage-body-mind-soul.html

I would recommend switching between this 2 sessions in order get your body in good working conditions.

By the way, what is sweedish massage? Swedish massage is the classic Western massage style, using massage oil and long flowing strokes.

I shall do some postings regarding types of massage in coming posts. yum yum..

2011 Year End Recap

2011-12-28T22:15:00.000+08:00

I have neglected my blog very dinosaur long. It's time again, ending year of 2011. People reviewing their whole year result (KPI) & then declaring or put up new resolutions.

How did you do in 2011? Did your resolutions worked out? or it was just a piece of nice shit being penned to impress in the end nothing happened? I hope it worked out well for you guys too.

This year for me... been full of drama, ups & downs, full of colors. 1st of all, i have completed 2 marathons, been consistently coaching squash the whole year, got my certification in squash, certification in sports injury massage, my girlfriend ran her very first 10km which i paced her, did kl towerthon together as well + work related been full of endless drama for growth & experience.

As for squash coaching, i did said i wanted to have 20 students. Of 20, i got only 10. It is not easy as i thought. So, next time before declaring anything please do your fugling research. Still at least i tried & managed to gain experience from it. Private coaching 1:1 is not easy to get 20. It takes consume tonnes of timing minus being stucked in the jam.


Level 1 Squash Certification

Squash Coaching Conference 2011

Squash Coaching Conference 2011 with coaches from Malaysia, Singapore.

Because i craved for knowledge & to compliment my coaching experience, i took a bold step to get myself certified as sports massage therapist. This is a bonus for me. Never in my mind i would take this certification. Pheewww~~~~ So now i am a certified sports therapist!.

Sports Injury Massage Certification

Apart from squashing & running & massaging, work wise been hell of drama. Will not touch about it because i gain valuable experience from it. Now i considered going into new untouched territory, given exposure, guidance, trust & other positive feedbacks.

The most memorable achievement that i did is in running. I completed 2 marathons!!!!

My 2nd Marathon

My 2nd Medal!

The 1st was Standard Chartered KL Marathon & 2nd was Penang Bridge International Marathon. Completed both!

I did KOTR 2011

Gained valuable experience. Why? because during the run, it taught me things that i can put it into my daily life. At first before i decided to try on directly from 10km to 42.195km, i said to myself can i do it? Then there was one angel slapped my head with my yellow crocs shoe. He said, when you say you can then you can. If you can't then you can't. So there it goes, i rolled up my sleeves & oh my fugly god!! i did it!!!!.. Still i want to thank this friend who told my that i can do. She's no other than Chooi Wan, this crazy lady is one of the sifu in running arena. She brain washed me. muahahahhaa....

So as i registered for my 1st marathon, some of the people asked & gave me a reply of negative feedbacks. Initially it pulled me back abit. Then i told myself. You guys watch out. Wait for my news, i will complete it! There it goes, eat this! Along this journey, it have opened my horizon. It let me see that i got to enjoy every process along my journey no matter how difficult it is, how challenging, how long it takes, as long as i strengthen my mental, i will reach the finishing line. It taught me that sleep can wait. It taught me to be different from others even though i may sound crazy. It taught me to be patient, love life. It taught me alot more which can't be described.

I completed my SCKLM. Best experience because i walked kangkang like got fugged by gays!! Can't walk properly for 3days. That's the amount of days it took me to recover to be able to walk. All this due to my legs did not get enough mileage. Then comes to PBIM, i thanked myself for being able to walk better compare to the 1st run.. hahaha.. All this made me sacrifice my time, training for it, making me addicted to it. As previously whenever i run 10km, my legs would be pain like those normal guys. Now 10km is just a normal stroll in saturdays. No pain no gain. 10km i proudly say sap sap water. Don't ask me for timing lah. very teruk one. hehehe... I focus only enjoying my run, completing, enjoy the process as a healthy lifestyle.

Now going to 2012, i can do 10km without any problem by complaining like a pussy. I am fitter even though not that fit enough. I started back playing squash & met alot of new friends. Hopefully it will help propel me to be fitter than 2011.

The happiest of all is my girlfriend at last did her first 10km. Before that, sure lots of drama for asking her to join in. Did her first in Nike run. Because of this & an encouragement, i paced her & making sure she get to complete it with good experience. Too bad, because lack of training, her knee is swollen & i am there again as therapist to give her a good rub.. Need time to recover back & change her shoe if she wants to run. Most importantly plenty of training with basic foundation strong. I am so proud of her!

The Tummy Pair!

8km++

Great Work!!

Done!! & Proud!

And then i went to Macau & HongKong which was completely planned by scratch. Luckily the trip went well & the big boss loved it.

Senado Square (Macau)

Ruins of St.Paul? (Macau)

Portugese Tart (Macau)

Double layer milk (Macau)

Best Beef Wantan Noodle Soup (Hong Kong)

Food Hunting (Hong Kong)

While in Hong Kong, got the chance to see some Bersih2.0 HK version. The police controlled the traffic, keep the demonstrators happy. Not like in boleh land, the gahment got no balls, gag all the oppositions, only they can hold demonstrations. We felt so safe there. No tear gas, water canon, no police whacking & lokap, no ISA. I still can afford to take pix!

Peace

Again Peaceful

Boleh Lagi Take Pix!!!!!!

They are so Obedient.

Jalan Aje. Not like in Boleh Land.

One Line, One Lane

Lengjai Police Controlling Traffic. No Tear Gas.

Still Can Take Pix on Their Helmet. Did Not got Whacked!

Vroom Vroom... No Tangkap.

Banner all the Way!

Some More Got Drumming Aunties!

It was Like 'Flower Car'

You See!!

And then there was another part in town where the Filipino maids did their stuff too!! At high-end area lagi.

No Tear Gas

No Water Canon

They Can Sing Lagi

& We Happily Snap

+ Camwhored abit


Infront of where?? Can you See??

Later then we went to Singa the Pura Pura for a short trip. I was the photo the grapher so to say. hiak hiak hiakkkkk~~~~ All the images taken are without flashlight. All using manual settings.

The Monkee

When you are bored in the bus.

Model wannabe

Mother & Daughter model

Super

Devil wears Pink

Happy Famileeee

Camwhoring

Father Scold the Sons

Little Brother crying

Papa Strip Little Son to Check JJS

Perfect Couple

Not to forget my best birthday gift of all. JACKY CHEUNG concert in bkt jalil! I get to watch my idol to perform live!! i repeat.. LIVE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!.Best of the bestedededededededed. Even now i am typing with jacky in youtube.

The Ticket

Waiting for the Show

Then i did my first tiramisu as a gift to my girlfriend during her birthday. Thank so sifu Vanessa for assisting me. Did a surprise birthday bash at Souled Out for her too.

Ingredients of Love

End Product

Then my house in hometown did the very first christmas carol since we shifted in.

My bloody yearly ritual. I have always believe in being bloody. Helping people.

Bloody Big Needle


Me being cool. Mrs Nurse so cool help to snap me.

I got twice bloody tyre punctured!!! bloody swei 2011.. This is the first time i encountered puncture. Changing tyre twice & thank god i am no dumb ass that do not know how to change a bloody tyre. Alot of drivers are so dumb & all they know is drive only. Without know the basic skills! Sorry if anyone of you are in this category. Obviously you guys need to equip yourself especially females.

This got in Jln Ampang

Next morning only knew i kena

My ah ma kehpo see i change.

There is too much in 2011 to put it in here to recap. Only the memorable ones is here.

Fast forward to 2012. What will i expect? Lets see what's the shit about.

1. Marathon. Mesti lari lah. How many?? I don't know yet. I planned to do an oversea run. Maybe better the timing of SCKLM & PBIM. Then other 10km & 21km. Hopefully my friends can join in the fun.

2. Work. It will be a tough year in work. Leading a bunch of monkeys with high expectation of churning results. I will expect myself to be stern in order to get the results. Indirectly i will put positive stress & pressure to make things work. If the project that i worked on now materialized, it will be even more sleepless night. This year will be work, stress, work, pressure, work, result, result, result & huat ah!!!!

3. Knowledge. If time permits, i shall hunt down Sports Science Level1 & Squash Coaching Level2 if it ever be head by ASF.

4. Maybe the next level in life. Spiritually.

5. Getting fitter, Healthier, Happier, more Abundance than 2011.

I can't predict what will the journey be. I can only work for it, face it, move it, go for it, no bullshits, make it work, lead the bunch of monkeys, establish the company's position. There will be no reason to surrender in 2012. If i surrender, i fail. Time to soar like a seagull.

How did you fare in 2011 & what's in 2012 for you?

It Paid Off

2011-07-22T12:59:00.000+08:00

Coaching at the moment never bored me. It makes me to look for resources to solve my student's problem on how to improve them. A coach who's passionate will sacrifice, do their homework, unlearn & learn to improve themselves too. That's what i believe.

Your sacrifice paid off when you are able to inspire your students when they say inspired and work harder or they gave you a text message out of a sudden to say that they feel they are improving when they play. The feeling of satisfaction is never enough & it just brighten up the day when things were not right at that time. I cheers me up. Making me wanting to go continue the work & improve myself further.

Instead of purely training my student all the time, i asked them to meet at the courts & watch the matches since malaysian open was up and running. My task for them is to enjoy the game, get a feel on the tournament environment and observe the game and players regarding & what they have learned so far. From my point of view, it is always good have a 'field work', then ask them to observe & analyze. This way it may get to inspire them. This applies to kids & adults too.

Just a short post to rant about.

Experience in Squash Coaching

2011-04-15T00:32:00.000+08:00

Since i've started doing my squash coaching this past few months, i must say it really opens up my eyes bigger. Not only playing but on how to observe, pin point, motivate, & many other more. I have become to be more patient & able to get closer with kids which i resist previously. It have makes me to improve on my game, do homework, research, problem solving. I even get to enjoy more. Passion? i guess so.

I have been lucky to being introduced to a few lovely people in the industry which is very passionate about this sport & with their generosity, they were willing to chip in to point me some advice on how do i improve. Really appreciate it.

When i 1st started. I do not have even a clue on how to start the class & how the flow goes. I'm only being taught on how the basic technique should be. So when i got my first two lovely Egyptian kids to start with, i just did my lesson plan & from there no return. Constantly looking for answers & modify what i have know & experimentation. Looking for ways on how to improve my students all the time. My mind was on squash all the time.

So far i have been enjoying doing it even though i can't see where it will lead me to. I'm doing it because i love the game, passionate about it & development on players. It's not only i develop people. I got to develop myself too before i develop a player. I get to learn from everyone as well. That's the beauty of it.

Now i'm awaiting my certificate to come since i have completed my 30hr log required by SRAM. Next target for me is to take up sports science & sports conditioning. Very interesting. It keeps my mind fresh & i can't really sit down quietly. Maybe i am still new to this coaching stuff therefore i have this hyper energy.

Lets see how i fair on the next quater of the year.

2011

2011-01-28T00:25:00.001+08:00

2010 sudah gone lo. Today is 2011, January 27th.

Last year has been a roller coaster for me. There's good & bad time in personal & also work. One thing that hits me most in 2010 was the passing of my grandfather exactly on wesak day. Shockinglinggam. speechless. hhmm.. I would rather not talk about the down stuffs lah.. make me not happy only.. To summarize it, i learned alot from when i was in down & breakdown.

I mau type about my happy moment lah.. Work has been good. managed to get some good porftfolio. Then managed to run two 10km which the timing was ok for me. Then the best part was taking up the Level 1 Squash Coaching!!!! I have thought of it quite some time ago & now it came true.. Really thank choo also lah for giving this opportunity. Maybe i met the right people at the right time.

As for personal leh, relationship has been going stronger lah. fullstop.. hehe

Okay fast forward now to 2011. What i want to do this year. Can i say i declare it as a resolution? who cares anyway..

1) Cut down on my jobscope in current company. (i know who's my allies & true friend when people only say what they say. Not honoring their words. In return i was in deep shit a few times.)

2) Focus & diversify on work that can earn me cash in hand immediately.

3) Going for my part-time squash coaching. To have at least 20 student under my wing & log in my hours. If all goes well & according to plan, i will go full time & take up Level2.

4) To run 2 full marathon this year. Standard Charted KL & Penang Marathon. A big upgrade for me & i decided i want to take this challenge.

So this is the 4 main thing i want to do this year. No point have so much resolution and in the end all also cannot make it happen. Puncit half way later susah lagi and become laughing stock.

Coming to Squash. Started playing only in Form5. Later got invited for training & then from there i never stopped. Even though i'm not a pro, i still can play lah. When you fell in love with a thing it is very hard to describe why you like it so much. Up till i was doing my coaching course, i found the answer.

I wanted to promote the best way i can to get more people into this beautiful sport in the country. Simple as that & it means more to development. Vision?? Maybe. I don't know. People say in career go for your passion. At first i thought my passion & what i like most is being in Events Industry till i had a recent big breakdown & it reaffirmed that it is not i do best. Found my answer twice and not once.!!

This coaching sounds scary to me honestly and it is exciting in another way as i am out of my comfort zone as i have totally green. hehe.. and so i embrace it. Now i have started coaching & i see things differently. It brings me even more satisfaction when my student are able to hit the ball & being able to communicate with them. I tell you lah, i have fear in meeting up new people & fear of developing people. Why? because my communication sucks all time. lol.

So i'm a newbie coach per-say. There's people kept asking what's my qualification & so on. I don't give a damn on qualification. A good player doesn't means he/she is a fantastical coach. What i do care/important is, i develop you, support you, assist you, 3 way communication which is you-me-parent, communication, discussion, point out your strength & weaknesses. A new player without any experience that want's to pick up till they can play beautifully may take up to 6-9months with once a week per-session. For adults it can be faster lah. For kids, sorry to say that lah, you want your kids to burn out & hate this game then you continue push your kids lah. Still it all depends on individual on how fast they can pick up. If they are good then very fast lo..

I have already encountered parents with high expectations on results and being ***King stingy & think they know it all. I have also encountered parents which is very good & understanding. It's all very different thing & very new to me.. Luckily so far i can cope it due to the so called "passion" most people say maybe. Also i found out that being a coach got to be friendly & not lansilanyong. Friendly approachable.

Lets see how i do in 6months time.. Really thank you Choo for this wonderful opportunity & the trainer who trained us the new coaches. Looking forward for you orang punya support!!

Enough!!! i'm off for sleep.

Tired

2010-06-09T21:44:00.000+08:00

I'm so tired. I feel so like giving up. Have you been in difficult situation when everyone is taking advantage & pressing you? I'm in this environment now and it's not easy.

Being a rich people, they like to look down on the so called poor. They so called say help but in the end still come with expectation & in their eyes we are only lower class people.

I'm tired really. Clapping with one hand instead of a pair. It's a joke.

Good Choices: Discernment Leads To Integrity

2009-11-17T18:50:00.000+08:00

I got this article from Freda Liu BFM. It's just something to share. Courtesy of Mellissa Laurie Seaman. Kopiright punya.

Good Choices: Discernment Leads To Integrity

Copyright Mellissa Laurie Seaman 2003 All Rights Reserved

We make judgments about people all the time, and they are usually not helpful. “That jerk just cut me off on the freeway!” “That girl is rude.” “That guy is an ignorant fool.” We make our judgments based on rudimentary perceptions and limited experience.

Life experience has taught many of us to be careful about making judgments. We have learned, usually the hard way, that making judgments and having expectations usually leads to disappointment at best. Our judgments close our hearts, and our expectations put limitations on an otherwise limitless future.

But sometimes you Know that something, or someone, is not good for you. Your gut tells you. Your instincts tell you. Your angels whisper in your ear. You can feel it in your heart that this thing, this situation, this relationship – is not right for you. Should you toss away this feeling, this Knowing, because it is a “judgment?” Should you feel guilt for having such seemingly judgmental feelings? No. To do so would be to ignore your powers of Discernment, and to make meaningless the Gift of Free Choice.

Discernment is a skill of Wisdom. To discern the Truth from the Lie, the Right from the Wrong, the Good from the Bad – this, if it is not done from a place of fear, is discernment. Fear is the underpinning of Judgment, as it is the underpinning of all Separation. Discernment is a gift that goes along with the Free Choice we all have. We get to decide what is right for us.

Walking the path with Good Intent for All That Is is the path of Integrity. It brings peace not only to the walker, but to all that surrounds her. It is not the requirement of a religion. It is not the dogma taught as to a child. It is not a restriction on freedom. It is simply the strong recommendation of a Universe that cares about each insignificant human light that walks the Earth and elsewhere. Discernment is the proper use of Freedom to Choose actions that benefit All That Is. This is the substance of Integrity - our birthright, our privilege, and our joy.

The End of The Wonderfool Journey

2009-11-10T02:04:00.000+08:00

Masih in moment ni!!! kanasai betul. After having gathered for the last time, we were like having examinations, rushing to finish up the last couple of questions before time's up. hehe.. Rushing for dinner of course. On another hand it felt like we were graduating from high school where we write messages for friends that we may or will lost in contact. Bermacam-macam feelings running around that time. Want to eat also so susah. :P

So officially today is the last day of us gathering for us. We will not know when what how why will ever bring us together again. Feeling now like one part is cry, bercrying, mengcryingkan, dicrykan and another part is happy, so happy, menghappy, terhappy, memperhappykan, sedang diperhappykan.

Now after reading all the messages from the team, i wanted to blog about it and here i'm stucked writing rubbish.!!

"8th July 2009 was the day the AWLYMPIC committee met for the 1st time. 4months later, it is coming to a completion... Haven't we had lots of fun together, taking on each other, and very much united as a team? The Finale tomorrow is really about this: UNITY!! Let our team show to them what UNITY is! As they look back on the month of OCT 2009, they will remember what they went through, how they showed up... And they will laugh at themselves, and learn from it! :)

Overall, it has been a very fullfilling and enriching journey, But i still have one little unfinished vision, and that is to have my entire team taking a photo together in that beautiful shirt..

It will happen! I say so!" - [October 31st, 2009]

Guess what?!!? We had the full team taking a team photo on the FINALE because he say so!

"As i recall, i enjoyed each of the meetings i have had with the Team and i always look forward to the next.. Today, i took some time to recollect the learnings for me since we started.

I learnt to trust and allowing the team to take charge. I learnt to let go and have fun, and things don't need to be so serious all the time. I learnt to empower, be compassionate and that everyone is equal. And i learnt to learn too.

I trust that you're having as much fun and learnings as i am. As you look back, what have you discovered so far? Mind to share? Have a great day ahead! Cheers!" - [Sept 9th, 2009. 7++ in the morning!!]

What i learned during this journey is that how to take responsibility with action. When i take up the challenge to be in the team i never thought about being a taker. All i know was it is a good time for me to contribute. Surely i made some mistakes in between this journey. When mistakes are done, i learned how to reflect and make the next best possible choice and being aware of the mistake that i done, laugh at myself and step to the left and move on. There's no need to share or explain when one does not want to hear what's the next action to do if one doesn't want to hear. Facing up and owning to it, handle it and it's man of honour.

I learned that i can do focus out and support others when the team needs me. Meaning to say am i a bloody supporter?? gosh!!! Taking swift actions without waiting for people's instruction is the best bet to make the team easy so that rancangan yang tergendala also can untergendalakan and make it run smoothly. Even though i had breakdowns in between the journey, he told me that breakdown is just a condition. Don't use that as an excuse of how i show up. That's true.

Oh ya, one thing though. Always remember there's no HOPE!! as Hope is a creation by ourself. I'm ever ready since i made and aware of the mistakes i've done. I'm hungry for more!!

"Sapa tak join AWLYMPIC, RUGI!!!" -[ Tati LP76 Oct 19th, 2009]

That's true!! They'll rugi lor cause even the committee had berlambak-lambak of funs!! We made them saying this...

"You made this happened! Together WE are ONE!" -[YK LP119 Nov 2nd, 2009]

"I would like to congratulate all of you for organizing successfully such an awesome event. First ever in Asiaworks, the AWLYMPIC. I can imagine the fun you guys had organizing it, which came along with all the heartache, pain, sweat, and tears. I must say i truly enjoyed every bit of the event that took place. I have benefited very much from it due to the perfect timing of all the events which was held after Hari Raya. Normally, every year, for the whole month of Hari Raya, we would be going to one open house after another; eating, eating, eating and gaining weight, and ended up being grungiee!!! But this year, because of the AWLYMPIC, the focus was shifted. Tournaments every weekend, busy keeping myself healthy and fit. Not to mention, the trainings on weekdays too!!

But what's more important is to see so many people (GLP, non GLP, family members, import atheletes, children) coming together, joining hands, participating in events, Cheering one another, dancing, laughing, screaming, having lots of fun and making thing happen. My relationship with my brother is taken to another level. My relationship with my whole family has turned a new leaf because of the AWLYMPIC.

I simply don't know how to express my gratitude towards Matt and the entire committee members and making this happen. Thank you, thank you, thank you from the bottom of my heart!! Ching Ching, you gave a wonderful speech yesterday during the closing which really melted my heart. I feel tears starting to fill up the corners of my eyes as i write this.

You guys are amazing!

"YOU MADE THIS HAPPEN AND I LOVE YOU!!!"...." -[Iliza LP78 Nov 2nd, 2009]

"Kudos to the entire Committe and Chairman of the AWLYMPIC 2009. It was a HUGE success. GLPs from all over converging again to participate, rekindle and keeping the LP spirit..... and having lots of fun along the way. Even my family enjoyed it. True, we made it happen, but you guys made the stand to make it happen. SALUTE!!!! To all GLPs and current LPs thank you again for the wonderful time. I give my heart to you guys. Hip Hip Hooray!" -[Choo Chee Yuen LP108 Nov 2nd, 2009]

Well these are only just a few messages that we've got. There's alot more. I never knew with such a great team with ever so committed to giving it out the result can touch alot of people. It's truly amazing. If only this world is so ever committed like this. HhhhMmmMmmm.....

Oh yaaa... I did not even thought that i have alot of same messages that i speak with my lungs. hahaha.. and also being so supportive and jumping in. I did not know how i managed to do it and i just go for it. To my teams that is infect with full of lung languages, thank you for supporting me me having me show up during this wonderful journey of 4 freaking months!! You guys gave me the permission to be myself and contribute. Never given up on me and giving the trust on me. I know it's kolot lar! but What The Fark right?!?!?!

I tiau u....We'll be black~~~

Something Is Wrong

2009-11-05T08:55:00.004+08:00

Everyone makes mistakes. So do i. I may have disappoint certain people. It's part and parcel of life and most important is how to face it up and overcome it. True that breakdown is just an excuses and how can i show up.

For what i do i'm readily owning up to it because of the result that i have created. People may have place their faith and trust in me and by this little mistakes it may ruin me or even not given the chance. Of course there's no point for me to be at the moment for a long time. It's not wise to do that. Sometimes when one is lost he/she it is easily to create a result that is not what they want.

This year has been a tough year for me and i've never gone through this challenges before. I found that it's really up to me to make it happen. Since it's coming to year end, i don't see anyway that i can't face the challenge as i believe my vision is larger than my small mistakes. Learning from the mistakes that i've done, reflect, make the next step and grow is the essence of life long journey of knowledge.

I know there's no hope. Hope is just by creation and i shall handle it, face it, own it up with my own 2 balls dangling there for me for 27 years.

My vision is larger than mistake. Not much of people know of my this little vision of mine. I had it with me since my secondary which is to give back to the people especially the kids. Be it homeless or school kids. I don't know how long i can achieve it and i surely know it's a challenging vision and it will come through. Only now i got to start from somewhere and not looking at the mistake i've already created.

I'm owning to it.

It's About Fun

2009-11-02T23:15:00.002+08:00

Now the Awlympic is over suddenly all the committee is having alot of blues. It's been a very memorable journey for me and the team. Building the Awlympic from nothing to something.

The 1st ever meeting that was on a rainy saturday morning at centre point bandar utama McD. I felt so stranger there as i don't really know them. All the face i've seen before but did not make contact with them. There was Matt, Melissa, Hooi Min, Quek, Sharon, Andrew, Jonathan (i think got), Dianne, Jun Hiong, Leonard, Ching Ching, Chun Beng, Buffy & YJ. Being assigned buddy pairs to work effectively in the end also tak berapa jadi.

Second Meeting there was Lili, Choon Moy & Michael to our edition of the committee. Talk about games and stuffs. Over the time our relationship became closer and bonder due to kena fuck up down left right front and back from chairman and of course non other than taking on each other and also not forgetting supporting each and everyone.

It's not easy to create an Awlympic in a month time but somehow with Matt's leadership we pulled it through. Came to the Balloting day, all of us were so nervous as we have nothing to count on only ourselves as Awlympic is the 1st ever edition that it is created. Response of attendance on the Balloting day was so so but the result was fantastic as the way we want it to be drama happened!! Fun & exciting.

The 1st few games was introduced till the launching of the game in 2 weeks time (roughly around there la). So prior to the launching of Awlympic, again we were nervous like shit. Almost tershit keluar lo. Gementar. Preparations, setting ups and of course the chairman is ever so controlling and kan jiong on what to expect. Bang!! it was a blast on the opening a.k.a launching. Performances and everything. The bar was set so ever damn high till we can't even think of how to do the Finale. God help us!!!...

During the process after the launching, there was of course alot of complaints, grungies, unfairness and the list goes on and on and on.. Everyone had breakdowns prior to their own in-charged events. Due to what? Late submissons, alterations of participants, complaints, securing of venue and so on. Due to the breakdown, the team still goes through the challenges lies ahead of them. From here, our relationship with each other started to bonded. Knowing each other, teasing each other and using the lung to speak.

Every week, the committee were looking forward to the meeting as there's always laughter, fun, & being fucked & laughed at ourselves.

The Vision of Awlympic is all about FUN, LOVE & UNITY if i'm not wrong.

It's a challenge when we are going for competitive and fighting for points as human nature tend to play red black game. Only IF ever each and every single one of us in the heart is pure then we will achieve that. Being said that, I'm sure everyone had the fun, love and united when the Awlympic was going on.

It's not easy to be a committe in Awlympic. We see friends that are close ended up fighting for not doing their part, couples fighting for not in same house, couples fighting for not tagging along to the event, and the dramas berlambak-lambak datang. It's just part and parcel of life. If there's no drama in life, there's no growth in life.

So i think 3 weeks before the Finale, the ghost in committe which is Jun wanted to do something for the finale and of course show something extra for our chairman. As normal she was afraid that most of the committee might not aligned to what she wanted to do so she goes to those that is willing to go extra mile and poison them first. I think her body was so gatal that time that's why she wanna dance.

She proposed that we do a performance during the finale as a surprise for Matt. And so we agreed as per proposed. Ching Ching was the choreographer. We are the konco-konco that is so bloody kayu. As stiff as a Balak. When Ching Ching showed me some moves, my reaction was just staring at her blankly. You know la, i kayu don't know how to dance. So we brainstormed on what song that we want to use and we chose Flashdance- What A Feeling. Then another challenge came. We have no idea on how the whole dance would be. Lagi lagi later and idea popped out that we do a sketch on how the Awlympic started and goes on and then dance.

Brilliant idea i would say! Got props some more!! Matt Voo punya muka also was inside. Topeng only la. So we went to lili's place and did some practice. We belajar for about 6 days. First 2 days was completely like sampah as we were doing funny stuff and adjustments. Some the other few days we learned and dance. Not even a single words of the surprise performance can be leaked out to outsiders and also made known to Matt. Even my girlfriend also did not know it. I tell you it was so hard to keep things from my girlfriend as she is so good at korek shit and we share our lives openly. So basically there is nothing we hide from each other. During the 2 week it was HELL for me!! I wanted to tell her and i can't. She kept asking me got so much of thing to work on the Finale meh? I said yes.

So came to the eve of Finale we went for setting up and woke up bloody early to go to the crime scene and practice but ended up training in office just because of raining. Then later we went to the scene and did the setting up till late. Whole day was there and office and we were of course burned. In the night also it was raining and jam like you wanted to shit but can't shit out! Means jam teruk. Hooi Min invited me for dinner with her family. So nice of her. Super SUpporter la she!

Then went back, and asked my girlfriend what time she'll be going over tomorrow. When she said 10++ am i was so down. Then i asked her she don't want to see the opening? Hinting her to come earlier to see her boyfriend do the performance in the opening. Then she said will come for the opening. Was so ever relieved and gementar. So slept early as i was already very tired. Woke up at 5am, picked up Hooi Min and reach UM to do the last practice. Then went the rest was history!!

The event started as we planned and Matt knows that we are doing something but just don't know what we are going to do. hahaha.. He cried when he saw us dancing!! woohooo...kena killed. So the whole day was fantastic day with the field fulled with water and becak and also everyone of us got Burned! Towards the end we did the closing and medal presentation and overall champion. We invited Nina and the house captains to give a speech gave out the best sportman award. Now, The Best Sportman award got to fulfill the criteria of the Awlympic vision. It's not about winning or losing but it's about jumping in to have fun. It goes to Darren a.k.a Spaceship Korkor.

Then the committee invited up to the stage and then Nina cakap lagi and then we gave asked Matt to stand in front to give a speech and he cried again and we gave him a chairman award!! hahaha.. When he was speaking i was few of the committee was already crying like a baby. Why?? It's the end of our wondeful 4months journey being together and bonded better than super glue. Then we did a mime and taught everyone. Again we corner Matt and did the mime to him and now i pulak beh tahan i cried when we were doing the mime to him. From then on after finishing the last mime we went down the stage all i could do was standing static at a place just to stop my crying. Mana tau people just came and hugged me and the air mata pun come out non stop. Kena lagi when my senior came over and did the sign to me! Then lagi kena when my girlfriend came and hugged me!! adduuhhhh.....

What i learned was that those who made the effort and contributed and sacrificed will tend to cry more and this goes to all the participants and the Awlympic Committee.

Thank you Matt and everyone in Awlympic for giving me trust to become part of the team and supporting me. Giving me the space and chance to grow with you guys. And also truly appreciate my girlfriend was so patient towards me eventhough got abit drama la and we managed to work it out.

Now all i feel is the blues and the music kept playing in my mind!! gosh!! hahaha

It's all about fun in life. No matter who win or lose, as long as we keep support each other everyone will be happy and benefited.

Kena

2009-10-14T09:20:00.003+08:00

Go back home kena. Don't go back home also kena. Sick oso lagi kena. Only I can't have feelings.
Feeelings oh oh oh feelingssss....

Type of People. Pt.1

2009-10-01T16:22:00.005+08:00

One world one vision one direction one idea and more than one. All of this one have alot of types. Sub categories of people with one idea which is to survive. Who doesn't want to win? but in going for winning, what's there to be learned? What's the value? very subjective i would say.

Value that people are looking forward is enjoy life to have fun. Win by not having fun equals to nothing. This post i would like to pay tribute to a few type of peoples living on earth.

-Kiasu-
~ People who can't afford to lose even once. They only know want to win.

-Kiasi-
~ People who's afraid. Ballsless. Afraid to die.

-Kiawin-
~ People who's afraid of winning.

- Muka Tebal-
~ No matter what people say, scold, toot toot and toot they are not afraid and still go for it. For example " eh join
my team larrr... my team the best u know!!" replied " tooot..how many time i tell u i duwan join your team.. u
very farn lah u. Wan me toot toot n toot u kao kao is it?. gardinea!!" muka tebal replied " nola..where got farn??
me farn mer?? come larr join me lar"

-Indah Water-
~ These people that's in this category is by far the best. I salute you. Often cleaning up shits that people left. Doing
the works that left over half way or when there's trouble the people will call up Indah Water to unsumbatkan their
shits.

-No Hand Tail- (in cantonese "mou sau mei")
~ These people often know how to use things only and do not know how to up keep their or people's or public's
belonging. Example, no sumbat punya barang also at last tersumbat because do not know how to take care of
things.

-Shit Stirer-
~ I like this one. This is like when there's no problem they will stir it till the shit appear with tonnes of it.

-Fire Starter or Blower-
~ They can't live in peace. They like to start some actions and enjoy watching it. The bigger the better.

-Water Blower or SKL-
~ They are the best of the best in talking. it's terbesteded Their cannon is bigger than nuclear bomb. Chicken also
can become pheonix i tell you.

-Cock Talker-
~ They only know how to talk. Shit that is not nice also can talk till can be eaten as pencuci mulut. After finish
talking, when it is required for them to work on it, they will not know how to work on it and they will use the
Cock and Talk to other people to do it for them.

Stay tuned for more.... I'll be posting more of types of people. I'm thinking of what title to put for each type of people.

Good Nite

2009-09-28T22:48:00.002+08:00

It's been a long working day. I'm at Seremban at the moment. I've been staring at my laptop the whole day in-fact till now. Just a couple of minutes to rest in between. My eyes are not that comfortable now. Since the infection from the previous incident, my eyes as though is not the same anymore. I feel so not that good. Never mind, i shall call it a day today.

Each and everyone of us punya working style is different and when one is focus in working they will show what ever face or horns. Some will be calm, emotionless, pushy, not patient, patient, niama here and there and the list goes on. Being rigor is good. But being rigor without planning is flying to holland. haha..

I'm stucked on what to write... Good nite.

Happy 6th Month Anniversary

2009-09-26T03:44:00.004+08:00

I got my best surprise birthday to date & it got my eye wet. So in turn to balas dendam which i did it successfully, i made this video for our 6th month journey of being together as a couple.

We've gone through alot of challenges together. Happy moments, Crying moments, Shouting moments, and many more. You name it we have it. I appreciate for what she did for me. Supporting me even though she does not know how but still she managed to do it. Loving me for always. Cared for me. If continue to write on, there'll be endless.

And so....i dedicate this simple gift to you my girlfriend. Happy 6th Month Anniversary.

I Love Today

2009-08-18T02:31:00.002+08:00

Thank you everyone for those caring words & support. Well lately life's been a roller coaster for me. I was focusing too much of what's not working and did not know how to use the 'what's next' to grow. Most of my post was too much of breakdowns. It's one place for me to vent it out though. hehe..

No matter how down i could be, i know i got to face the challenge on the journey of my life with patience, will power & compelling desire to churn out the unexpected result. My patience paid off finally. Today is just one of the day of "Light At The End Of Tunnel". Met up with Mr. A (can't disclose the identity to protect the safety) & it was like a sprinkle of holy water from jesus & kwan yin and i'm awake!! haha... needless to say, it was a fantatic conversation to renew my expired spirit.

I know mom & dad is worried about my well being. I want to let you know i'm in good shape as failure is a growth for me to grow stronger. Failure is not a bad thing. If i can't learn anything from failure or grow from it then i am really a failure. Every successful person climbs up from failure. So long that i am aware and clear of what i want in my life, i will continue to chase after it.
People may see i'm easily bullied from outside. Also people got to understand the meaning of doing good deed will be blessed. I believe in that and i got it.

To my Girlfriend. I know you care for me and support me. I get it. You really empowers me to do what i least expected that i can do.

Friends. Thank you for supporting me all this while. See you during yumcha. hehe..

I just love it when i have breakdown now.. goshh....

Not A Nice Post

2009-08-17T14:08:00.006+08:00

It's a bad day. How bad can it be? Nice, not happy, sarcastic i've used with patient. There's this word i remember "Buddha also got fire". What ever way i used is just not the way. What ever action is not the way. What ever word i say is just not good enough.

I just felt so hurt right now. More over contradicting. I'm so full of bruised. People don't care for me anymore. Wednesday hopefully my checkup is not good.

Probably people doesn't see the things that i create.

Never have i tried reading a sarcastic text messages that my tears flowed out as soon as i finished reading. What a nice feeling. With a heartbeat beating even faster and acute pain i felt. With alot of stress in work and crisis i'm in now, it just don't understand what i'm going through now. It won't be a smooth journey i know. What i believe is i can make it. Still i'm hurt. Not even a text i've received today. Nevermind. I don't want to hear nice words.

The Climb

2009-08-13T09:27:00.003+08:00

I can almost see it, that dream i am dreaming, but there's a voice inside my head saying "You'll never reach it".

How ever hard it is. What i do it for my life. People may see or say i'm irresponsible. In the end, i do take ownership of my life and what i do. Along the journey there'll be crossroads that need to be taken. So i'm taking it with courage and patience. I want to survive & i can't wait for other people. Judge whatever you like & see me up there as i'm sea gull.

I'm My Energy

2009-08-11T14:38:00.005+08:00

There's always been this word flying around. "be yourself". How can one be themself? Contradicting. Much indeed.
Happy everyday. yes. Should walk the talk and not talk the talk only. Creation is important. Emotion is not right at this moment. I shall do something to shift my focus. I have always thinking of drawing each others energy to a positive note. well...i don't know. It's hard and impossible but fret not. Even though i may look like a fool, i believe it's achievable.

Because i'm my Energy. I'll draw up energy from now. Create the possible instead.

Feeling Lost of Direction Suddenly

2009-07-30T00:03:00.003+08:00

Have you feel you are lost of direction suddenly? I'm feeling it right now. Even how lost i am i still do hold the believe and vision i dreamed of. The dream & vision is not about myself. It's for the 2 of us. Alot of mixed emotion are running through me now.

Signs & Symptoms of Deepression

2009-07-23T23:26:00.006+08:00

I think i'm Having it.
Those that's in green means i have.

--persistently sad, anxious, or empty moods

--loss of pleasure in usual activities (anhedonia) (Kickboxing)

--feelings of helplessness, guilt, or worthlessness

--crying, hopelessness, or persistent pessimism

--fatigue or decreased energy

--loss of memory, concentration, or decision-making capability

--restlessness, irritability

--sleep disturbances

--change in appetite or weight

--physical symptoms that defy diagnosis and do not respond to treatment(especially pain and gastrointestinal complaints)

--thoughts of suicide or death, or suicide attempts

--poor self-image or self-esteem (as illustrated, for example, by verbal self-reproach)

Why can't people give me space & i feel so hopeless now. Tomorrow will be the first time that i'll be conducting a teambuilding session & i'm in deep pressure now. The closest one doesn't seems to care about me & my feelings. Aiihhh......

I'm not sure about it. 我恐怕拥有 this.

I am the not nice guy.

2009-06-28T18:57:00.005+08:00

Too good to be true right? I shall do what people don't like say what people don't like to hear. Piss me off and i'm pissing you all over your body. Rome is not build in a day and you shall know it but anyway just fuck it. Rome or not Rome is still i'm a shit on the floor. haha

And oh ya...who ever it is please check in to hotel and check-in.

Let me just dieeeeeee~~~~~~

Sad

2009-06-28T17:34:00.002+08:00

Gosh.. I'm not feeling that well now since yesterday. One new sickness approach me after headache and dizzy which is no gastric. Wanted to puke some more. Cause of gastric was when i went for a charity carwash this afternoon, those old paulians shoot me with a can of beer. I did not take dinner, breakfast and lunch when i went over. Now this is the price to pay.. wooohooo..

0oo0oo..now i'm like the enemy of all person. Even the closest family member also did that to me. Am i that wrong when i make a stand and be strong as a steel? or if i don't do it people is taking advantage of me as well. Some stuffs that people say is very very much contradicting actually.. well, i'm afraid that i'm not allowed to have my own space and let go my grungies as the one i * doesn't care for me & reply me. Sad Sad

Salvation & No Boundaries

2009-06-10T18:45:00.005+08:00

This is what i'm goin to do later in badminton. Quite stretchy for me though. OWTF!! nothing to lose right? All i need to do is put down my guard and ego. I've never done like this before.

It's a sign language so it's a little hard for people to guess i think. Only the love part you guys should know.

Happy Stretching aye!!!!

Baskin

2009-06-10T17:09:00.003+08:00

This is my lunch for today. Having Baskin Robins from my girlfriend. Taste also slight different from the normal baskin that i buy. hhehe..

Later on will go for badminton. Hope can tahan only from Baskin that i ate. After the game will rush to Klang to meet-up a person to give payment and network around.

3rd day into vegetarian. Not the pure wan lah of course. As long as i don't consume the meat for a month is okay ady.!

Never Ever

2009-06-09T00:07:00.000+08:00

No Boundaries

2009-06-08T17:22:00.007+08:00

Work today so far has been good. Even how good and busy it is i felt something is missing in me. This month has not been good for me. Firstly in work there's been some glitches and misunderstanding with counterparts which placed everyone in difficult situation. Secondly i got to know that my mom need to go for operation A.S.A.P. and thus put me in not a good mood (backdoor maybe huh) cause i have never encounter this type of things before in the family. Since it is a operation, means $$$ is flying to the hospitals so i have to start tying my stomach. No more kickboxing at the moment much worse is i'm awaiting my new car!! Die?? Think about adidas. Thirdly is my personal life.

Every journey i'm placing / trying new things as not to follow back what i have did previously. Well well, there's pros and cons. Can't complain much. I did not regret it as it is part and parcel of growing. You can say i have the patience now and still i have yet to master the skill. One thing that can cause a relationship to be unbalance is high ego. I discovered that one muscle now i need to work on is letting down the ego completely off. When ego is high, challenging and daring in a relationship is not healthy. One hell of a good lesson.

One thing that i was aware at that time was i know there's challenge thrown towards me, automatic reaction was to challenge back so i did it. Real silly. Saw the whole expression like wanted to say something. HHhmmm...enough said.

In this normal situation, as i acknowledge that i'm very hard headed i will say bye bye. Well i guess / think...wait wait.. if i guess and think then i'm stupid. Well things happen because god has set a journey for me create the extraordinary. So what say you? ......

I'll be back........

Oh i like this...

I am STRONG because I know my Weakness.
I am BEAUTIFUL because I see my flaws.
I am a LOVER because I have felt hate.
I am FEARLESS because I have been afraid.
I am WISE because I have been foolish.
And I can LAUGH because I have known sadness

Ohh

Seconds, hours, so many days

You know what you want

But how long can you wait

Every moment lasts forever

When you feel you've lost your way

What if my chances were already gone

I started believing that I could be wrong

But you gave me one good reason

To fight and never walk away

So here I am still holding on

With every step you climb another mountain

Every breath it's harder to believe

You'll make it through the pain

Weather the hurricanes

To get to that one thing

Just when you think the road is going no where

Just when you almost gave up all your dreams

They take you by the hand and show you that you can

There are no boundaries

I fought to the limit you stand on the edge

What if today is as good as it gets

Don't know where the future's headed

Nothing's gonna bring me down

Jumped every bridge

I've run every line I risk being safe,

I always knew why

So here I am still holding on

With every step you climb another mountain

Every breath it's harder to believe

You'll make it through the pain

Weather the hurricanes

To get to that one thing

Just when you think the road is going no where

Just when you almost gave up all your dreams

They take you by the hand and show you that you can

You can go higher

You can go deeper

There are no boundaries

Above and beneath you

Break every rule cause there's nothing between you and your dreams

With every step you climb another mountain

Every breath it's harder to believe

You'll make it through the pain

Weather the hurricanes

To get to that one thing

Just when you think the road is going no where

Just when you almost gave up all everything

They take you by the hand and show you that you can

There are no boundaries

No boundaries

Yeah, there are no boundaries

Salvation

2009-06-08T01:52:00.003+08:00

Back from a good session of beer with friends. 1.53am still i'm wide awake. Normal for me. It's either i'm reading books or i'll be on the phone or i'll be onlining.

"Looking into what i have done, i have done my best and the rest is really up to god's faith. This morning i woke-up and forgive myself and other whom i have love and being loved. I can't carry the baggage from the past and move together. What is yours, is yours. Love them as a person. They will leave when time has come. Even how i'm deeply in love with the person i will have to let them go when time does not permit."

What i've done best is at the moment and it does not bring to the fact of future. Forgiving myself is forgiving what i have done in order to improve myself so that i am aware of what i'm doin or working towards an objective. Goin into a battle without a fight is considered suicidal but every suicidal battle will come back strongly as we have know the opponent's strengths and weaknessess. Know how to attack and defend at the same time.

It's good to read books that can empower ourself and but to use the tools to empower people. That is the most important thing in life to do just like in relationship. Supporting / empowering each other towards a common vision.

Well too much beer i guess. Maybe it's after effects from the beer. Or maybe not. ciaoz..

Tomorrow is a new day. Salvation time to move forward. God bless everyone.

Mom

2009-06-07T11:12:00.003+08:00

Mom is going for oper the ration next week due to some women disease. As i can't do anything for her pain, what i can do is to be with her physically and spiritually. What i'm going to do is to go vegetarian for a month as a cleansing for my family and myself. Most of all i'm might be shaving off my head as well. There's no one in the family has been admited to hospital for operation so all of us are quite green in handling this situation and luckily my mom is calm compare to last year.

Everything is in good hand.

I Dream & Wake Up Clear

2009-06-07T10:42:00.003+08:00

As i was browsing through Facebook, i came across this quote which is timely and i dreamt about it last night. No accident i guess.

"If you find yourself holding back forgiveness rather than giving it, regardless of what was done unto you...you unconsciously carry a baggage of grudge from the past. Chances are, the grudge has expanded and fills your present unknowingly. One who loves unconditionally releases the past in acceptance & forgiveness for freedom in the present."

I slept quite early last night as i need a good mind resting. Had a nice dinner with dad, mom and grandmama. That really kept my thought alive. Sis went over to Bali for her 2nd company trip. Lucky her.

Last night i dream about why did i acted like that. Am i not giving enough? Am i not patient enough? Am i not good enough? Am i not a good listener? Am i a bad tempered person today as in now? Am i not honest? Am i not open? Am i not authentic? Am i not risk taking? Am i not responsible? Am i a cheater? Am i a Liar? Am i not caring? Am i not loving enough? Am i not giving trust? Am i not giving freedom? bla bla bla bla....

Looking into what i have done, i have done my best and the rest is really up to god's faith. This morning i woke-up and forgive myself and other whom i have love and being loved. I can't carry the baggage from the past and move together. What is yours, is yours. Love them as a person. They will leave when time has come. Even how i'm deeply in love with the person i will have to let them go when time does not permit.

How painful it is, the sweet memories i have, i will cherish the moment. God Bless.

Am I?

2009-06-06T21:55:00.002+08:00

Such a short period there's been misunderstandings, miscommunications and most of all arguements. In reality, if one act based on past experience then they are still not moving ahead and in comfortzone. One mistake that really got out of hand was losing my temper and control. Need to check in why did i do such way maybe.

Not a good time to blog. As long as one is not facing to handle things together i would say the whatever relationship whoever is in also will not go anywhere as there's alot of inner conversation and also not ready to being open.

So take the time to think then. 2months and as though now i felt i'm clapping one side. Am i or am i not?

How can i balance it?

2009-05-24T23:39:00.002+08:00

Been busy with work, relationship & friends. Work wise is going smoothly & i'm gearing for the next step of the company's direction. Well ahead of the schedule from what i want from the company! Congrates to myself. That shows how i changed my approach and focus.

Talking about focus, is really a daunting task. When i focus of being fit and my work, something else cropped up. How can i balance it?

Can I or Can't I ?

2009-04-21T02:20:00.002+08:00

Is it wrong to put myself / yourself into other people's shoes? For example how they feel and how they react? Can openess be replaced by affection?

Affection in dictionary means:-
1. fondness or tenderness for a person or thing
2. affections feelings of love; emotions: I was angry with her for playing with their affections

Open means:-
Adjective
1. not closed, fastened, or blocked up: the doctor's office was open
2. not enclosed, covered, or wrapped: the parcel was open
3. extended, expanded, or unfolded: an open flower
4. ready for business: some of the crafts rooms and photography shops are open all night
5. (of a job) available: all the positions on the council should be open to females
6. unobstructed by buildings or trees: we lived in a small market town surrounded by open countryside
7. free to all to join in, enter, or use: there was an open competition and I was appointed
8. (of a season or period) not restricted for purposes of hunting game of various kinds
9. not decided or finalized: the legality of these sales is still an open question
10. ready to consider new ideas: I was able to approach their problem with an open mind
11. honest and frank
12. generous: she has given me love and the open hand
13. exposed to view; blatant: there has never been such sustained and open criticism of the President
14. unprotected; susceptible: a change of policy which would leave vulnerable youths open to exploitation
15. having spaces or gaps: open ranks, an open texture
16. Computers designed to an internationally agreed standard to allow communication between computers irrespective of size or manufacturer
17. Music
a. (of a string) not stopped with the finger
b. (of a note) played on such a string
18. Sport (of a goal or court) unguarded or relatively unprotected
19. (of a wound) exposed to the air
Verb
1. to make or become open: it was easy to open the back door and to slip noiselessly outside, she knelt and tried to open the drawer
2. to set or be set in action; start: the US will have to open talks on Palestinian rights, I want to open a dress shop
3. to arrange for (a bank account), usually by making an initial deposit
4. to declare open ceremonially or officially
Noun
1. the open any wide or unobstructed area
2. Sport a competition which anyone may enter [Old English]

But what if i'm the one who take all the innitiative? Is it considered my clapping with one hand OR is it the guys must take all the doings? I'm not sure sometimes when things are being promised will it need to be forgotten often times? Or when a person asked a question or starts to speak up when it really bothers them the other person will divert the question back to the opposite side in a way of defending. Are they aware of it?

I'm currently stucked with am i right or wrong at this moment that the current situation needed me to be in controlled for a moment but instead i was thrown back the question. What will happen when i become controller instead of supporter? Want to have a taste of my controlling side? We'll see....

The Art of Impossible

2009-04-21T02:03:00.003+08:00

I came across this mail send by my grilfriend and it was really inspiring.

Idris clearly believes that a man's reach should exceed his grasp By Tee Lin Say

His 3-year turnaround plan called for a profit of RM500mil. Impossible, they said. But the airline made more than that – RM851mil – in 2007, a year earlier and 70% more.

Malaysia Airlines Systems Bhd chief executive Datuk Seri Idris Jala not only sets seemingly impossible targets but achieves them – you cannot help but notice, his unrestrained passion for all things impossible.The loftier the targets, the more he thrives and loves it.

But there's an x-factor – things you can't control. That, the stoicly spiritual Idris, leaves to divine intervention. But he explains how you can get the divine to be on your side – more on that later.There is an important caveat for those wanting to transform companies. There has to be personal transformation first.

"For me, my baptism of fire was when I went to Sri Lanka as the CEO of Shell in 1998. The company had acute problems and had been losing money for years.

"If I had relied on my textbooks, there was no way I could fix the problems. During that time, I had to unlearn what I had already learnt. I had to reinvent myself to make the impossible happen," he says in an interview.

To make the impossible happen – that was the key. But how?

"After my Sri Lanka experience, I was a different Idris. Before that, I never believed in the game of the impossible. I was scared of failure and would never think of setting unthinkable targets."If you always do safe things, then you will never realise your potential. But if you stretch your targets and push yourself to the limits, you will be surprised at what you can achieve."

The book by Tracy Goss titled The Last Word on Power/ Executive Reinvention to Make The Impossible Happen helped shaped Idris' ideas, and today, he makes all his staff read it. "It taught me how to think," he says.It is exactly because of his fire for restructuring troubled companies that saw Idris accepting the gargantuan challenge of turning national airlines MAS around in 2005. He got right down to business. On the first day itself at 8.30am, Idris presented his turnaround blueprint to the board of directors.

Idris went so far as to make the business turnaround plan totally public – something never been done before by a listed company in Malaysia. And everybody felt Idris' targets were crazy. They were wrong, of course.

He breaks down the turnaround process into four crucial parts:
·-Build the case for change and get the buy-in from stakeholders such as the board, employees,
shareholders and the Government.
·-Lay the facts on the table and explain their consequences. "I told them, if we don't change, we
will run out of money in three months," he explains.
·-Unleash talents, much of which was done through running laboratories, where people were put
together in rooms to come up with solutions to problems.
·-Focus on the profit and loss (P&L) accounts. "If an activity did not generate profit or reduce
losses, I was not interested."

"Today, all MAS staff are very aware of having to anchor everything to the P&L statements. We have created leaders and seen so much potential from our staff through our strategy of running laboratories," he says.

Divine Intervention

Despite Idris pinning everything down to numbers and getting to the root of problems, he is a strong believer in divine intervention – God or fengshui, or something else if you prefer. Idris believes the majority of things that happen in our lifes are beyond our control."We cannot control 60% of the things in our lives. With the 40% that we have, we can try our best. It does not matter if we fail. We need to recognise that we are vulnerable. That gives us the peace of mind.

"We need to bring in the element of humility. The day you think the world is at your feet, that is when pride sets in, and it is over," he says.He thinks divine intervention works to one's favour, when you do some things.

First, be a good human being, for instance, helping the poor.
"Recently, we increased the salaries of all MAS staff earning below RM1,000 (per month). Now, there is no MAS staff who earns below RM1,000. This may increase cost but we need to do the right thing, which is to help our staff make a decent living and support their families," says Idris.

Second, Idris believes in having the right values, in terms of being ethically correct.
For instance, in business dealings, there are always the white, grey and black areas. Many times, people are forced to step into grey areas when making decisions."My belief is that we should always stand firm on the white area even when we are forced to step into the grey area. We need to document and clarify our reasons for stepping into the grey area, then quickly return to the white area."If we do not document it, eventually our conscience will be modified. Hence the next time we step into the grey area, we will think we are in the white area. And when we are in the black area, we think we are in the grey area!" says Idris.

Third and very importantly, Idris believes in self-renewal and time for solitude and reflection. It is during these period that one should take the time to count one's blessings.
"Most people are not happy because they are living for another day. That is why they are jealous of their neighbour's new car or new house. What is enough for a person? For me, what I need is a house, a car, insurance and education for my family and money to buy my blues CDs. Everything on top of that is luxury."Adds Idris: "Don't take things for granted. I believe that when somebody dies, suddenly life is different. You realise that very few things are important. That we should just be happy to be alive."Nonetheless, Idris also believes that if you want something bad enough, somehow you will get it.He cites Paulo Coelho's The Alchemist and quotes one of the phrases in the book: "If you want something desperately, the whole of the universe will conspire to give it to you."

Spirituality and Love
A spiritual person, Idris is a practising Christian who prays diligently. If there is a Sunday where he does not attend church, he will hold mass at home where he leads by conducting readings for his family. He even prays with his 19-year-old son Leon (who is studying in Britain) via Skype.Idris' life principles are based on love, enabling others, God and passion. Passion, for him, is a convergence of heart, soul and mind.He believes in the importance of getting married and having children. After 26 years of marriage, Idris keeps his marriage alive by having love, commitment and respect for his wife, Datin Sri Pang Ngan Yue."Marriage is about give and take. I believe that when you first decide to get married, you need to be deeply in love. You need to be sure that you have found the one. It is about two people becoming one. You can never be right all the time," he says.As for enabling others, it is about taking a back seat, or sacrificing oneself for the betterment of another. Idris says he feels great when he enables someone else to feel good about themselves.

Last Friday, Idris performed in a concert for the first time at the Groove Junction pub in Sri Hartamas. While he demonstrates much adroitness with the guitar, his main motivation for playing was to get his son Leon to perform in public."Leon plays a mean guitar. I have asked him before to play but he refuses. So the only way to get him to perform is if I also perform. That is why I put my name down that night," he says.On this note, Idris' first guitar was made of two pieces of plywood, which he strummed at the age of 13. His favourite blues musicians include Kelly Joe Phelps, Eric Clapton, BB King, Buddy Guy and Jackson Brown, among others.

Idris' other great passion is deep-sea fishing, a passion which has brought him to the Maldives, Vancouver Island and Perth, Australia."Once I went fishing in Vancouver Island. The skyline was beautiful and we caught fish and ate it with wine. That was such a perfect moment. And I thought, that would be such a perfect way to die!"If you catch a perfect fish and then have a heart attack, I think that is a nice way to go," laughs Idris.

And what's next for MAS? As announced, it is talking about transforming into a five-star value carrier, earning RM1.5 to RM3bil – yes you read right, as much as RM3bil – a year by 2012. Impossible? Don't bet on it.

WHAT made you agree to take up the job in MAS?
I came because I was very passionate about turnarounds. The Government came to me via Khazanah. I never applied for it.The person who was really chasing me (for the job) was Khazanah MD, Tan Sri Azman Mokhtar.

WHAT made you agree to take up the job in MAS?
I came because I was very passionate about turnarounds. The Government came to me via Khazanah. I never applied for it.The person who was really chasing me (for the job) was Khazanah MD, Tan Sri Azman Mokhtar.

How did you succeed in implementing all the positive changes in MAS?
It is all about unleashing the talent. We run laboratories. We get people to come into the room and solve the problem. That is the answer.In MAS, there are many good people, you just need them to do the right thing, the things that matter to the company's P&L. It's a good airline. The product and services are good, but unfortunately it was not making money. I always say - if something does not improve the P&L, then it is not a priority.

This belief in divine intervention, when did that happen?
I have always believed this. I find that more than 60% of what happened to me, happened not because I planned it. They just happened.

30 Hours.

2009-04-16T11:43:00.003+08:00

While i was cleaning the house, there was a thought of going 30hours without food but only water to survive. Sounds interesting and so i'm up for the challenge. It is just like fasting but they eat so much before starting it while i just had a small bowl of asam laksa.

Started at 7pm. Now is 1146.

I have not tried anything like this before. Mind you it was not yesterday's post that triggered me to do it. I just want to see how patient i am and how clear is my intention. Clarity is the word i guess?? So lets see how i fare on this. And if i'm not mistaken i've not been touching ciggi for a month already. woohhooo..~~

The biggest test will come around 230pm and 9pm as i'll be out in the streets. Will update from time to time if possible.ciaos

**Update : 4.13pm -> Starting to feel the effects of gastric. Should i continue on or take care of my body.?

Sunshine

2009-04-16T10:27:00.002+08:00

Woke up late today and there's no mood to work. Felt that there's no sun shining on me today. I need a sunshine. Maybe i need a hide away or do things that i like for today. Just hanging around at home do some house chores. Clean the House.

Come What May & I'm Hurt

2009-04-15T22:54:00.004+08:00

**This post is a real personal stuff & it may be read by certain quater of people that has the same wavelength in terms of trainings. It may offend people. So who ever is offended please shut the browser down or else Come What May.**

Today has been up and down.

Being in contract seems hard. Real hard. But guess what, being in contract really push me to Come What May as the song by Nicole Kidman & Ewan Mcgregor. I am a Honest, Responsible & Risk Taking Man.

What is Honest?? What is Responsible?? and what Risk Taking means? Anyone please? What fucking Jargon is that? I've been questioned of my being do i really love her. What is the exact precise defination of love means?

Based on one person's question, "Do you feel he love you??" You have got no answer? If it can't be answered based on how i go after you is ridiculous, i have no comment on it. But is there any rules on going after a person? If there is so, wouldn't it be a fixed believe that human race has had all this while?? If i say i was totally not aware of that situation, the answer was not accepted BECAUSE it is something that i did based on past experience. What fucking other explanation do i need to give anyway? I'm not being honest? I'm going after something which is sex? I'm doing this because i placed a bet? I'm doing this because i want to show off to people? If you guys think that i'm this kind of person, i'm sadly to say that you guys are a fucking bunch of morons for being judgemental & making assumptions. If i were to do that i would do it at the clubs hitting on girls!! But i did not. I don't do that.

Deep down myself i know what my values are. What about image? Do i have any image? If i have image i will not things that are hurting myself and make things work eventhough i have got not a clue about it, i will not go the distance, i will not be worked by people, i will not have any breakdowns. If i have image i will do things that i can please myself and not facing up to errors that i made. Now i don't know even if the people that are close to me even know who i am really.

Going after her really taught me this word of Come What May / Surrender (not raise white flag). I have no expections but patience. What i have to give i had already. Giving my trust is very risk taking but because i wish not to hold back i went all the way till only i said a wrong word i'm being judged. What do i expect in return? I did not expect anything but only you to love me. That is what i'm looking for.

Three words are not easy to say it out. If it is easy to say out then i'm not being honest. I'm lying. First time that my eyes was wet infront of a person because of this. It really hurts.It hurts till i had tears in my eyes now as i'm blogging this stupid stuff. I may not be good at saying things but i'm there to learn. Learning need time master. Relationship needs time nurture, guys. Coming 12.18am is the 3rd week of my relationship. Very young.. If i don't love you i would not plan to bring you somehwhere. If i don't love you i would not do things for you. Cared for you. Try my best to make you laugh. Waiting for your text messages. What i need to tell you i have already tell. It's only your part that you wish you want or don't want to share with me. I can't push people.

What should i do? I'm afraid that i would hold back because being honest people may take advantage of it. But what can i do? I still need to honour my words with action. Continue of what i've created and not giving it up like i did previously.

I'm so hurt now... Well i guess Come What May. Maybe people just like to see me to be in my controller suit huh?? Being nasty. Cold hearted. Not caring. Ego side of me. There's no point going to all of the training and forget everything and not placing that in practise. It's fucking wasting time and money and fucking stupid to go back and so call contribute.. Guess that i have lots of anger in me now. Why? because this time i learn Come What May and backfired. Questions being thrown at me do i love her. Sabar pun ada limit punya. Am i not a good boyfriend? If it is based on who's right or wrong then abit susah to work out i would say. Based what i have now is my love for you is still growing strong and i sudah berputar-putar don't know what to say anymore..

Mysterious as it can be just like the song is singed.. Journey in this relationship is waiting to be discovered together. I can't discover and create the journey alone. One thing for sure, Beautiful or not it is up to our creation but if it's all because of people that has been evoking the past experience it may not be a beautiful journey. Only that it will lead back to where the past experience is and starts from there again and again and again in the loop. Eyes are bengkak and i need a rest.

Lets listen to Hero by Mariah Carey & Pavarotti.

Take The Lead

2009-04-15T16:50:00.002+08:00

Well well, never did i knew that after a movie can make me shift.. Made me calm down. Fun to watch people dance. Take The Lead. Shall I as well?

How Did It Happened??

2009-04-15T13:00:00.008+08:00

Something that triggered me on these things. Never had i thought of this situation before. How did it happen that even i myself don't know? People said that if it happened then in the past i've done it before. How in such a short time i can be that? Situation changed is not accepted due to that? Even i was not aware of that was not an answer to that as well.

Having said that, whatever answer, reason or explaination will be incorrect at that time. It's good to be given this type of questions to think at it at the right time. But come to think of it seemed like ti can't get the right answer out for whatever it is. Now that i'm aware of it, what's next? What can it be done to improve from here?

I don't really know how to go about it. Having a slight breakdown at the moment. All the words that i gave seemed just not good enough or it can't be accepted.

Maybe i'm not that a good person to be with after all to be aware of those detail things. What had i become? I did not mean it. Come to think of it, how can i most of the time I spoke the hurtfull things? May it be Honest? May it be Open? May it be Responsible? May it be Risk Taking? Maybe i need to shut up?

We Hold These

2009-04-10T01:11:00.004+08:00

I can read through Audacity of Hope by Barrack H. Obama. There's a line that strikes me.

"WE HOLD THESE truths to be self-evident, that all men are created equal, that they are endowed by their Creator with certain unalienable Rights, that among these are Life, Liberty and the Pursuit of Happyness"

What can this mean to you? Is there anything similar that appear in our life today as mentioned? How did we been shaped into this type of reality? Why is that? When only can we human goin towards a common goal without shedding blood, not being a racist, respect each other, united as a nation?

Another heaven

2009-03-28T23:54:00.005+08:00

Being clear of what i want, patient, persistent has brought me a thing that i thought at first i will not be able to handle and in the end i was given the biggest surprise. A surprise that 50% of me thinking that i will not be able to & another 50% know it is a yes. Ideally speaking what i wanted was a yes so i sourced it right!!

I've learned that i need to surrender at times when things are not coming my way and how can i work till i get it. Getting myself clear of why i wanted it is amazing. Why? whatever thunder come also i will not be shaken. Oh ya, confidence also is a key. Sometime when i was not that confident i also need to project it out such that from outside other can or may see that i can handle stuff. Mayb i can put it as calm as well. Risking is well worth it without having fear of rejection.

Earth, you are such a giver,

Giving life to everything,

You grow trees, Tree grows oxygen,

Born the human,

But what did the human gave you?

Human destroys you, exploits you,

You did not regret and you let them regret,

Earth, such a beautiful word.

歌手名称：王力宏Ft.张靓颖Singer Name: Wang Lee Hom Ft. Jane Zhang Jing Ying

歌曲名称：另一个天堂Song Title: Ling Yi Ge Tian Tang

集名称：心跳Album: Xin Tiao

你取代前一秒我生命的空白

ni qu dai, qian yi miao wo sheng ming de kong bai

问题忽然找到答案不用解释也明白

wen ti hu ran zhao dao da an, bu yong jie shi ye ming bai

你的微笑是一个暗号我能解读那多美好

ni de wei xiao, shi yi ge an hao, wo neng jie du, na duo mei hao

梦想不大想永远停在这一秒

meng xiang bu da, xiang yong yuan ting zai zhe yi miao

你为我的世界重新彩绘

ni wei wo de shi jie, chong xin cai hui

是你带我找到另一个天堂远比想像中更美

shi ni dai wo zhao dao ling yi ge tian rang, yuan bi xiang xiang zhong geng mei

我们怀抱里的这一个天堂另一个梦想有无限的快乐

wo men huai bao li de zhe yi ge tian tang, ling yi ge meng xiang, you wu xian de kuai le

相信你是我的另一个天堂给的爱多么纯粹

xiang xin ni shi wo de ling yi ge tian tang, gei de ai duo mo chun cui

因为你而存在这一个天堂爱是直达的路线

yin wei ni er cun zai zhe yi ge tian tang, ai shi zhi da de lu xian

因为你而存在这一个天堂只想陪在你身边

yin wei er cun zai zhe yi ge tian tang, zhi xiang pei zai ni shen bian

我等待下一刻再相遇的精彩

wo deng dai, xia yi ke zai xiang yu de jing cai

每天每天越来越爱逻辑就这么简单

mei tian mei tian, yue lai yue ai, luo ji jiu zhe me jian dan

是你转到同一个频道定位我的幸福座标

shi ni zhuan dao tong yi ge pin dao, ding wei wo de xing fu zuo biao

我多渺小能爱着你才最重要

wo duo miao xiao, neng ai zhe ni cai zui zhong yao

想把你的明天仔细翻阅

xiang ba ni de ming tian zi xi fan yue

是你带我找到另一个天堂远比想像中更美

shi ni dai wo zhao dao ling yi ge tian tang, yuan bi xiang xiang zhong geng mei

我们怀抱里的这一个天堂每一个梦想有无限的快乐

wo men huai bao li de zhe yi ge tian tang, mei yi ge meng xiang you wu xian de kuai le

相信你是我的另一个天堂给的爱多么纯粹

xiang xin ni shi wo de ling yi ge tian tang, gei de ai duo mo chun cui

因为你而存在这一个天堂爱是直达的路线

yin wei ni er cun zai zhe yi ge tian tang, ai shi zhi da de lu xian

因为你而存在这一个天堂我只想陪在你身边

yin wei ni er cun zai zhe yi ge tian tang, wo zhi xiang pei zai ni shen bian

Make local destinations a priority, Malaysians urged

2009-03-19T16:58:00.004+08:00

"Put Malaysia as your top holiday destination, especially during the economic downturn", says Tourism Minister Datuk Seri A.O. Said.

Yes we can do that. Only when the standard is on-par with overseas & there's no 3rd world mentality of management.

You know why people have got not even a single clue on the local destinations? It's because the destinations are not being promoted extensively with information or should i say we as the citizens not being considered as the main tourists instead they focus all out on foreigners? When the time are bad only you guys turn to us to boost back the economy? How will that going to help? You yourself not even considered Malaysia as your top destination, so why should we?

Although i only frequent to a few places, i've seen there's alot of work need to be done. It's not impossible but only if they are compelled to do it really for the sake of Malaysia. Things that i see that deters local going for local holidays are the price can go overseas already lo!! The place are not maintained well enough. The local operators work as if they just want to survive only. Toilet is so good smelling, better than Dior Addict. They treat foreigners like a god and not treat the locals good.

Now you guys think that the foriegners can boost our economy all the time then you might be abit dumb. How many times if doing comparisons with the locals can they come to Malaysia in a year?

Set an example 1st la before ask us to put priorty to Malaysia as our top destinations!!

Wong Kiong Kai

2009-03-17T00:32:00.003+08:00

It's been a long time that i have not been cooking and i did it today. Cooking a real dish. Had a gathering with few of my friends and we did some pot luck thingy where everyone bring some dish and share it for dinner.

So i prepared 'wong kiong kai'. I have no idea what it is called in english. Lemon grass chicken?? Yellow ginger chicken??

Been quite awhile i have not touch this dish and it is my signature dish. Luckily everything turns out fine and all loved it. Spicy and yummy..

Oh..There's people been not believing in me that i can cook. hahaha.. And so it shows it all...

next stage will be a suprise. yay!!

Limitation is a Sin and Waiting is a Virus

2009-03-09T01:46:00.003+08:00

They say it takes time to create. They say possibilities are done with creation. They ask when is the right time when now is not the right time? They say when the ship leaves the jetty, it will not stop.

I've completely got no idea how to go about it. I guess i don't need to work on it that frequent anymore or should i say i need to surrender it completely and move on? As people say when it's mine it's mine. Fate dictates all?? Surrender without fighting? It's really up to the people now and how the people want to handle.

Oh, i've been jogging again. It really feels great when the leg is wrapped with my jogging shoe. Been awhile now i last did jogging. Wants to keep my body back in shape.

So, well yeah, I'll be placing in more on creating possibilities to myself rather than sitting there and wait. I will regret if i don't live to the fullest. Limitation is a sin and waiting is a virus.Waiting is a virus because it will jammed up the mind as one will tend to think nonsense.

It's 2nd day

2009-03-02T23:18:00.002+08:00

Starting again with not smoking . Today is the second day that i'm not smoking. How long i can endure?

Seven Pounds Trailer

2009-02-27T16:47:00.001+08:00

Seven Pounds Trailer

2009-02-27T16:47:00.000+08:00

Life

2009-02-16T10:46:00.002+08:00

I can dictate some part of mylife and the other part is all about fate.
I can't make a one likes me and only i can give unconditionally.
Too much of jargons too much of complications will appear.
Operating from a simple mind is .......

Test On Me

2009-02-15T02:06:00.000+08:00

Oh ya i just did a test on myself..and the result is...

Your view on yourself:
You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:
Your have very sensible tactics when approaching the opposite sex. In many ways people find your straightforwardness attractive, so you will find yourself with plenty of dates.

Your views on education:
Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you:
You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success:
You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.

What are you most afraid of:
You are concerned about your image and the way others see you. This means that you try very hard to be accepted by other people. It's time for you to believe in who you are, not what you wear.

Who is your true self:
You are full of energy and confidence. You are unpredictable, with moods changing as quickly as an ocean. You might occasionally be calm and still, but never for long.

For You

2009-02-15T00:54:00.003+08:00

I could not believe it myself either. The first time i saw you then when i got to know you i'm attracted to you. I thought it was just a crush so i took a step back. I tested myself. I grounded myself to see if i do really like you as i told myself before that i wanted to focus on my career. I felt different. Completely different. Can't really explain that feeling. Everytime the more i resist the more it persist. It was like the song can't get you out of my mind.

When i got closer to you i know that my feeling for you is for sure. No fluke. Not to copy your words or anything but it is truly from myself. From that moment on my intention is getting clearer that i'm really into you. How i know?? Whenever i see that you are happy, i'll be happy and smiling. When you are not happy, i could also feel it myself. The feeling really can't describe. I have never really felt like this before. When i think of consideration, i'm really afraid that i could be hurt badly as i've done it before. Past experience hurt the most. But then i thought to myself, if i don't take the chance will i be the same old KennethNorman? Everyday thinking of consideration and staying within the comfortzone. Not taking risk. Not responsible. Last but not least not honest to myself. How long can i avoid? When chances come and i don't take it will the opposite think i'm holding back.

Given now that i'm trying to not holding back, taking the risk which i know it is a 50-50 chance, i just do not want to regret it. Regret that she may be the one and i let her go without trying anyting. Everyone is afraid and get hurt. In order to grow why not give it a try because without getting hurt one will not grow to the potential. Getting to know one more requires one to be together and feeling is just one part of it. More important that both are willing to work it out with openess and also not pushing beyond the limit. Open conversation is vital as well.

Now i'm not sure what i need to do. One thing i learned was that i need to surrender. Surrender as in not to give up but surrender to the fact that things will not come my way eventhough how hard i let the person know my intention is. I like you for who and how you are and that's for sure. Those who knows me well enough will know it.

You may take it that i like to flirt. I know i'm not. I have to respect your space as well which i did. All i ask for is a chance to work it out. Even i myself also afraid of failure and dissapointment.

If you don't say it out how will the person will know? If you talk it out how will know it will not work? If you keep it all to yourself you are like the rose. The rose is like you are afraid of letting yourself to be loved.

I'm abit down actually today as i got to know you can't go out with me. I roughly already know that will say no as the way you told me that previous night. Still i not afraid to source for the right answer. I just need to surrender. Power of shifting is also a vital tool for me. Eventhough i shifted still i feel abit of not good. Now i discovered that i do really into you. Am i foolish? I have got not even a single clue.

Happy Valentines Day.

Happy Niew Year

2009-01-25T14:51:00.002+08:00

Today is the eve of CNY. Sounds fun though. Only thing that is fun will be the dinner with the relatives. Just read todays paper. Your god father and semi-godfarther was farting alot. So much that it sounds like this, "Unity the way to Handle Tough Days Ahead."

Speaking about unity?? How will you make a difference inorder for us to follow the footsteps? Anyone seen how a bull farts??? We have two constantly in limelight.

So this OX year lets fart more so the economy will be better and bullish.

happy

2009-01-24T03:11:00.002+08:00

I'm stucked. Not know what to blog about.

hhmm..let's see. I had the best week as it was so busy juggling between own time n work. Happy happy.

The Memory

2009-01-15T00:46:00.003+08:00

I will soon be starting a journey that is unforgettable for people.

CRY

2009-01-13T21:38:00.001+08:00

When i was listening to the songs of the journey...i almost wanted to cry. How can i be different??

I Am A Money Magnet

2009-01-10T01:08:00.002+08:00

Often I've heard too much of people say no money la, money not enough and whatever reason when it comes to money. One thing i discovered was that the more i say no money, i will not have any money coming my way so long that i ask the universe not to send it to me. Isn't it true??

I've been saying that for the past say 8 years perhaps. Now this 2009, i've changed my saying towards money. I tell my friends now that it's not that we got no money but money is on the way. Every day i remind myself to say that money is on the way waiting for me. It's a kind of law of attraction and interaction with the universe. Whenever we use our sub-concious mind to thinks or ask or wish something that we know that we can't get, indirectly we are communicating with the universe. So when we ask, automatically the universe will give us the answer. I would say so far i've been practicing in 2009 i do see difference. Not that drastically and it's improvement.

Say i'm stupid or i'm superstitious. He who, who don't take a chance or take a risk when there's opportunity is there to grab is even more stupid than me. Can i say Dumb SS? Taking a risk will not go to hell straight when we fail, instead we created some sort of result comes with experience and been there done that. It's all about constantly doing something different to achieve the desired result.

I would invite my friends to say I'm a Money Magnet / Money is on the way instead of no money or money no enough. Simple enough and it doesn't require any formulation of law or passing of bills in parliament.

My friend send me this link & may i present you with.....

What One Man Can Do

2009-01-08T00:52:00.003+08:00

I had a hectic day today.Pheeww... sweats~~..
Went lunch with a friend then to an appointment then volunteered to help out Asiaworks then to Badminton then dinner then came back did some weight lifting & crunches... Been wanted to shed off my waterbed for sometime & now i'm eager to drop it off to make myself satisfied.

During the lunch with a friend of mine, she told me something that struck my button. Don't neglect myself. What does it means?? Health or Relationships?? Obviously there was some hinting perhaps?? No idea. And as normal being a typical analyzer, i began to think think think and think. What it means.. Stress me up for abit but what the heck, i let it go for a moment. All i want this year is to focus on my career and build it up for 2010. I'm sure it will happen as there's been results showing.

Frankly speaking relationship is one of my red button (weak point). I have completely no idea why is that if you were to ask me. One thing for sure i know is that in order to get the career going, relationship got to be working as well. Why?? it's because Yin & Yang. What a man can do is to have someone to support, share the joy of ups & down. The energy of balancing. Say a man has acheive his yin but he felt something is missing. What's that?? It's the Yang that's missing.

All the time i've resisting on something that i'm not comfortable with. Maybe because i care about what others say to me or put it the other way as fear of rejection. Sometime i feel that inorder to avoid rejection i would reject the other 1st which i did. But you know that you are someone special that i can't be with. The above has sent me to give u something special and all i know is that i'm thankful for allowing me to be in the space with you for a brief time. Now i'm having the red button again and i'm not sure if i want it as i'm searching the missing puzzle for approval or the right answer perhaps??

How or What One Man Can Do?? Will I be blessed or or.....??

Superstitious????

2009-01-06T22:09:00.003+08:00

Some say it is superstitious but some say it's how hard i work. Why not put it into superhardstitiouswork?? Sounds cool yeah!!!

2009 has been forecasted by fengshui to be a tough year for me. So far going to the 6th day of 2009 has been awesome to me. Enjoying every bit of it. I thought to myself i'll die this time year around because i just couldn't keep thinking i will survive because of financial instability but it's like things are falling into the right places & right times. There's been job coming in eventhough it's not concrete, i kept on sourcing for it as i want to shift to the good vibes instead of procrastinate without trying.

It says that i have to lay low & humble which i did so far. Maybe that's because the roads are falling in right places time being. Been telling myself to keep cool and separate business with friendships clearly & it really do wonders.

Keep on sourcing, keep on attracting, keep on be at source, keep on working on my weakest muscle, keep on humble, keep on low-profile, keep on absorbing knowledge, keep on acknowledging, keep on facing up & not avoiding..

Wish vs Wanted List

2008-12-30T01:59:00.003+08:00

New year is coming soon & everyone is thinking about what to write in their "wishlist 2009". So what's with those wish list all about?? When i wish something then is it will drop from the sky as a result i wish? If can i also want oh. So nice and then i would wish that i can stay at home and sleep. While sleeping money of RM50 notes keeps grows every single minute. SO, the more i sleep the more richer i become. I think i can be richest man in the world overtaking Bill Gates. How's that?? Sounds interesting....hhmmmm...

People has been putting on their wish list and did they achieve it? Some yes and some no. Those wish that did not realised when we complie it with those yester years we made i think can make a bridge to the moon i bet!! Sounds cool yea!! i like.. When we wish for sure the things will not be materialised based on evidents cos wishing is a sin and the wish we have can be delay as we have the next day and next day and next day and so on..till we die also wish. Logic or not it's up to ourself and let the mind fuck itself. I call it MINDFUCK or MENTAL MASTERBATION (MM).

Instead of wish why not we put it as wanted-list?? Sounds lagi cool kan. There's differences between wish and want okay.

For example 1, i wish to pangsai tomolo but if tomolo no mood come i still have the other day.

For example 2, I want to shit now and i can't tahan already!!! Wanna come ady!! I WANT TO SHITTTTT~~..this scenario shows that this guy is more determined than the wish guy. What ever it takes, he will make it happen.

How your dreams goes really is not by wishing but to want it happen or not. Either way human still can't change but only making a difference.

I'm In Doubt Now

2008-12-27T23:14:00.002+08:00

This tolls that i've got has made me much more grounded before i make any decision. Made me see things even more sharply than ever but only people doesn't believe in what i say. How equiped with whatever tools i have for sure i have breakdowns.

Now i have breakdowns. A breakdown where i've been indirectly placed with pressure to choose. It's a matter of choice. I can't decide but deep down in my heart i know the answer already. Oh ya, humans think by their heart but not brain. Brain means mental masturbation. Close friends from college has been bugging me to join them in forming up a company whereby i only have to fork out the partners fee. Everything has been in place, well positioned for me which means my road / future in the company has been laid nicely but only to perform the duty as partners.

Pressing for direct answers from me seemed not working for me as i know that whatever big decisions i have to access it carefully, detail and coaching. What they say is true in a way that is to my advantage because i'll bring in only my experience and expertise.

One thing that struck my mind was that they don't understand me well. So much so that i need income in the end of the day all i want is only two things. Respect & Trust. I've get to know that the wavelength of understanding is completely different. 100% tarak sama. Good to be friends but not business partners. I've formed up somestuff with my new business partners & things that i build up half way i will not give-up & bring it into the new company with my friends if ever i shall join them.

I'm now in need of coaching from my sifu & i need to talk to my business partner. My new found friends understand me better & know of my potential. How am i going to go over it. I'm doubting myself now.

Risking & Coached

2008-12-26T01:53:00.003+08:00

Everytime when there's big occasion, people tends to think where would like to go and celebrate or party. This year Christmas day is pretty different & i'm glad to hang out with a few friends whom i made with. Not celebrating or party just for the sake of partying but instead we opened ourselves up and get coaching or views to make us more aware.

Very rare to find people with the same wavelength to be honest enough without intention of taking advantage back now days. Different views were placed out & we laughed & we teased & we make fun with. Comfortably at a person's house whole day long. We were like english people. Doing nothing but chatting like a politicians.

People often judge people and make their own assumption and gather their own not so concrete proof to prove other wrong but not listening to the real story. Not many people know my situation. Treating my whereabout is right now & being with who i need to be with is my priorty now because my life is at stake. Quite a serious one. Life at stake means i will be harmed anytime without any prior notice. Because i'm being so nice, i've been taken advantage of whilst i've got threatened. No one knows but only a few.

What dissapointment do you have compare to me? I may not be responsible to you or your other sub-friends but i'm more responsible to my life. Which is more valuable? Every of my tracking is like being monitored & i can't do much about it right now, only waiting for the 3rd incident to strike. But most of all i'm blessed that i consider i'm adequately protected by the black & white side.

If you were reading this, i acknowledge of your dissapointment but i would like to invite you to step into my shoe. What can you do about it? If you are able to answer, so what and why? Also try to check into yourself on how was your being. Righteous? Egoistic without listening to my suggestion? Taking advantages? The list goes on.

To my friend. If you tend think that you know everything, it is very dangerous but if you are making assumption, that would put you into the mother of all fuck-ed up. I invite you to take the initiative to look up on me rather than i give myself and go to you and meetup at your place.

Merry Christmas.

Stand by Me

2008-12-24T11:34:00.002+08:00

When your best buddies are down with what so ever crisis, will you stand by them? I believe in a phrase which sounds like this,"when i'm in crisis, i will know who will stand by me & they will be your best buddies." When i'm in a stable, high paying job everyone will flock to you. True colours will come out. Only matter of time.

Merry Christmas

2008-12-24T11:05:00.002+08:00

Chirstmas? What's christmas? The birth of Jesus Christ? Why celebrate christmas? Is it for the love, religion, & peace he has spread?

If so, what can we see now in reality? Why is it so? Can we really make a different to it? Yes if it is in the mind and not doubt it & no if we don't believe in it.

Candle is soft yet powerful when is bright,

Lights up the world with love & peace.

It's shaky when wind blows it,

When it diffuses the world is blinded.

Pure as you can be but only purest will suffer.

Today is the eve,

Time to forgive, love & peace.

Desperado

2008-12-22T18:29:00.003+08:00

There was one afternoon, this guy went to his dads work place to pickup his car. While he was walking, he looked at his dads hair. He saw alot of changes in him. All this while what he sees was jet black hair.

His eyes was red & filled with tears out of a sudden. He wanted to cry but he hold on to it. There's quite alot of grey hairs grew on his head. Signalling that the age is catching up... There's a lot of expection from him. High hopes been placed on his son. He wanted to show him but he's building something that is out of comfortzone which he doesn't understand. How can he show?

Desperado??....

What About Us??

2008-12-12T00:22:00.004+08:00

Today someone in the corner. Someone is homeless. Someone is hungry. Someone is mourning the death of their loved one. Someone is fighting for anti-corruption. Someone just talk about what can they do to their community. Someone that promises at their propaganda that there's wind of change. Someone says enough is just enough. Someone has to take the blame instead of blaming the government.

What did we do to make it a better place to live in? Human nature that how we are programmed since generations, often make assumptions that 'we know everything' eventhough we don't know. Is it because of image that we can't lose out? Or is it because of being righteous? Up for anyone to do their own judgements. When other introduce something which is beneficial to someone, often the other will say that they don't need it or they know what the training is all about. Think carefully again. Is it call resistant? Judgemental? Assumption? Arrogant? When people say they don't need it, phycologically proven it is time they needed it most.

It is sometime amazing that people are unaware of their subconcious mind but only stick to what they are taught conventionally generations by generations.Current situation here in 'eh sai land'(hokkien) really is not in good condition. It's all about me, me and me constantly focusing in rather than focusing out. When disaster strike, certain community will only act for a faint amount of time & greediness is seeping in their veins in top ranking areas. So imagine that one of our loved ones in the situation, how will we react? Cry? Complaint? Pointing fingers? Of all this actions what is ones intention? Something to ponder.

People tend to think they know everything when they took some new knowledge & seldom be humble. Can't we go down a step lower to be on par and then work together with them up to the expected level? Instead of pointing fingers & the kok as big as canon, can't we listen and understand them & then only provide or give some suggestions working together to a new height? Isn't it more beautiful instead of just blowing the water?

Creating a community to give out with a good intention without being the mind corrupted with their own idealogy is nearly impossible as human are programmed to be in sin.I present you with....this music & video HERE.

Putting Aside, Come Together

2008-12-06T19:08:00.002+08:00

What does a party does?? Does it provide advantage profit only for ther own people within the party members or serving, contribute without thinking of taking anything back, serve to improve the citizens well-being?

A party does no recognise human with their skin colour, race or religion but instead it should be formed with all walks of life to provide the nation with a better tomorrow without thinking of taking advantage of making a huge profit for their own 'gang' only. Can it be possible that people make a better tomorrow without being thinking of imposing silly matters that are going back towards the dark age or come together as one race which is called malaysian to make a better tomorrow for the generations coming? Possible? It will only be possible when hands are clapped in a pair or in a group to make a sound. A single hand is unable to make any sound but only in imagination(lala Land).

Humans does not fight among each other but work together as a family protecting each others interests, wellfare, guardian for mother nature & etc.....

We are one race which is human making a better tomorrow isn't it? It really doesn't matter if you are Black or White.

Journey of A Lifetime

2008-11-14T20:43:00.002+08:00

Past few months was a hectic journe for me as i've been introduced to a wonderful journey cum training. People deemed this training is a cult & tonnes of people are so-called against this training as the people feel that they are pushy. Also it people considered it very expensive. It can be expensive or inexpensive depending on how people looking at the face value.

I was enrolled into this training called Asiaworks. Sound familiar? Takutkan?? I went into the training with the expectation of getting more sales idea which i did and on top of that i get more that i could bargain for!! So, firstly i went for The Basic traing then Advance Training & the last one was Leadership Programme. 3 trainings of a total of rm6 thousand plus is by far the value for money compare to the training provided by T. Harv Eker which could easily cost more than SGD10 thousand plus!! People are judgemental. You judge yourself. I've been to T. Harv Eker's training also.

So, during the few months i've met with alot of amazing strangers later turned to friends. Friends that i can considered close friends, can count on them. They will stick with me even though i was down. I saw who my friends was when i needed them and when i was down i saw those who came and lend me their support. The past few months i've learned to discovered my strengths & weaknesses, improve my weakness, acknowledge myself for who i am & trusting myself that i am capable of what i do best which normally i doubt myself.

And may i present my journey of a lifetime..

Swear

2008-08-19T10:56:00.003+08:00

swear what la??? only you know the truth. Made some mistake also can swear ma. No one knows. From outside it's just an image anyway.

For example. I killed a cocoroach. My fren saw it but i denied it. I swear to al-mighty that i did not do it to clear my name. I stand by my decision. In the end of the day, only god knows eventhough god can't voice out directly to humans. There's Karma.

Nothing's Gonna Break Us Down

2008-06-21T23:08:00.002+08:00

I'm having a breakdown now, but it's good for me. It's a new beginning to breakthrough. I know it will bring me to another level playing field which i don't know how it's going to be. For now I'm feeling the vibration.

Apa Jadi Kalau.....

2008-06-02T23:09:00.002+08:00

What if your wife did that in front of so many people on church?

Manipulate?

2008-05-24T01:34:00.002+08:00

First time in my life human are trying to manipulate me. What's wrong? I have no idea. Maybe because humans just like to listen to what they like to hear. Human after attended Basic Training thought they have changed but instead going backwards. Humans thought they are not using any of Basic's term but then they did not realise that actually they are using it in a way to manipulate people into believing their victim story.

Luckily i did not fall into the trap. Why?? because i'm clear of what i'm doing. If people can't accept the honest feedback, normally humans will do whatever way to defend themself without they themself knowing it. I felt so dissapointed that a human should have their mind conditioned in a better way after the training but this one terbalik pulak. Nevermind la....i got to shift and make a turn take the challenge.

I'm feeling good now as there's people understand me. Bless me.

Hallelujah!!!!

Ipod For SALE!!

2008-05-24T00:34:00.002+08:00

Ipod for SALE..... Secondhand......RM650.00...inclusive cable & earphone... Message me or call me.

Rockford Fosgate Amp for SALE!!!

2008-05-22T22:30:00.003+08:00

I want to sell off my Rockford Amp. Mono Bloc.

This is the angel. Woofer pumping. No regret. Good Bargain.

Selling price RM950.00. C.O.D.

Will send directly to you around Klang Valley only.

Grungies

2008-05-19T17:23:00.002+08:00

Today is Public holiday. Today is Monday. Today is shooting day.

Apa itu no grungies? How can i hold my expressions when i'm pissed off? My training told me to be more expressive. I learn to be responsible, gave my words but then people tend to take things for granted for being late. Is this the Malaysian culture? Purely Malaysia Boleh?? I guess so.

What's the purpose in life? Retire early and be unproductive? After the training people tend to fall back into being their old self or even did not realise n change at all. I'm experiencing it right now.

Pengsan & i'll do what i choose & i'll make it my way perhaps. But now after pulling my trigger i'm feeling good. Nothing holds back.

Damansara Village Eat for Charity

2008-05-18T22:32:00.003+08:00

My friend's restaurant is having a charity drive entitled

Damansara Village Eat for Charity.
Date : 20th May 2008 (Tuesday)
Time : 5.30pm - 11.30pm

Address :
Damansara Village Steamboat Sdn Bhd (724917-M)
No.1067 Jalan Jenjarum,
Kg Sg Kayu Ara,
Off Jalan SS23/10,
47400 Petaling Jaya.

You can see the map HERE to reach there.

Sales & costs of operations on that night will goes to the victims who're hit by disaster in Myanmar & China.
Personally i've tested his steamboat food & i give him a 4 thumbs up to his food & environment he created at his restaurant. Also where got such a charity that we can fill our stomach so full with seafoods?? It's only a one night charity & do go inforce with friends, family & colleagues.

You can contact Jason @ 012-2985823 / 03-7803 1832.
www.damansaravillage.blogspot.com

Grungies

2008-05-18T01:17:00.002+08:00

I'm at the mode of 'pissed off-ed' now. Humans living in boleh land tend to take advantages of time. When meeting people i don't like to be late so it's an agreement with myself that no matter what i'll b early & if i'm going to be late i'll inform other human kind earlier to keep them patient & not guessing.

Today i've had enough of waitingfor a certain human kind. Even though i'm a small peanut, please be on time. We are in the service industry & meeting up on time is very essential. Think of the term of respect, responsible, trust, honest & many more. I have grungies? well in a way but who is being more responsible? If human are really interested in going to a certain place & penetrate the market there show some seriousness ma. Don't ever think that i can wait forever. Is it your time only precious?

Don't tell me all the Asiaworks terms to me. You have not put it into your life. That's how i feel of you. I don't like to show my powderful side. So don't provoke me & take advantage of me.

Still Working

2008-05-16T18:04:00.000+08:00

Enjoy.....

Nothing Is Working But It Still Works

2008-05-15T23:06:00.002+08:00

i've ran out of things to blog about.

Oh ya, i been through the so-called 'cult' thingy called AsiaWorks Training. The motto is nothing is working but it still works. It was hell, challenging, mind provoking, soul searching. You name it they got it. It's a challenge for humans to face up their mistakes or what ever shit they are avoiding all these years & knows how to change it.

Let's see it in a brighter note, look out of the box, see possibilities. Intention + Mechanism = Results? How much of percentage that Intention + Mechanism needs to equal to Results?

What can we see in an apple and pineapple? Is it just a fruit? Think about it.

The training has really empowdered me to make things differently. People told me, saya ada kebolehan special but i chose to ignore it till then i came to realised that actually i can grow the potential.

I will change the stuffs step by step as long as i don't takut-kan people. Also i'm so grateful that i've met a good bunch of cool dudes. Really blessed with that.

@ Genting Sales Conference

2008-03-17T19:27:00.003+08:00

Am currently @Genting attending AIA sales conference now. It's been a real opener for me and another first. The event itself was huge. Around 1800 people attended the gala dinner that is so packed which normal the first world grand ballroom only able to cater to around 1200 to 1300 people. Really grand grand grand. Big applause to the committee to make it work smoothly yesterday. Today there were 3300 peopl attended the sales conference!!! Damn!! It's like a sardine packed in a tin.

Needless to say, i got headache due to the stuffy area as there's not enough air for everyone.haha. Really enjoying here and able to wash my eyes for abit. Too bad i did not took my camera as my sis need to use it. Shit!!

HHmmm

2008-03-14T21:42:00.001+08:00

some one's birthday is coming at month end...still thinking of what to give....hhmm....

Bunch of Caring People III

2008-03-10T20:41:00.008+08:00

Updates....from previous post

Above's images are food supplies that we have now.. Still need supplies and support.

Election or Erection 2008??

2008-03-08T22:26:00.002+08:00

Vote for change. Mr.G, don't talk big. Don't use comparison when you ask not to compare and then why use cyberspace to woo voters when you say bloggers are liars??

How can we trust you?

Bunches of Caring People II

2008-03-04T23:30:00.002+08:00

Updates :

I've got updates from one of the main guy Suresh on the item we've got now.

- 3 bags of rice
- 2 bags of powder detergents
- 30 soaps
- 30 small bottle shampoos

This plan was started on the 23rd February 2008. So far we have these stuff only. I hope more will come in. We have 2 pickup point for the time being. One will be in Kepong / Segambut area & the other one will be in PJ / Puchong area.

About donation in Money, we are getting the money to buy in bulk for item like nestle or dutchlady products as we can get discounts and also if possible to cover our costs of transport.

Bunches of Caring People

2008-03-04T21:29:00.002+08:00

I just got a message from one of my buddy. This is how it read and i'm in it.

Dear Friends,

Just to inform you , we having a charity by volunteer to collect money and food for Orang Asli.For those who just recieved this msg , its just a charity and no connection with Politics, Religion, or Club.Just a bunch of people joining hands to help. The orang asli living standard is bad, they dont have electricity nor some basic needs.We cant give them a banglow but the least we can is try to help them the way we can.

The trip will be on April 13/ 2008 Sunday ,Is this date suitable for you?. I will send to you some photos of the orang asli later. Their village is located in "Janda Bai", approximately 45 minutes from Kuala Lumpur. Its the same way to Genting Highlands. I would like to know how many will be coming along so we can prepare transport , car pool. We will spend a day there. Now working on getting a vehicle to transfer the donation things.

Things recommended to Donate;
· Oil
· Milk
· Rice
· Cloths
· Biscuits
· And any other food stuff
· Donation in form of money at any amount will do (just put in an envelope)

We can start collecting things and prepare for this charity. For those who wish do come across my blog and wish to donate do leave your phone number and name and i shall contact you for detail and collection.

I noticed that recently one of the blogger did some charity to an orphanage home but i had no intention of copying her footsteps FYI. It's just a coincidence that i'm also helping my friend that is organizing this trip of charity.

Will update on this thingy more frequent as i could... Stay tuned....

Ngo is Me

2008-03-03T22:16:00.002+08:00

The power of blog. I did not know it is so powerful till i offended them. I don't even have a clue on what i did wrong to them. Am i insensitive or they are too sensitive? How / when it happened i have no idea but one thing for sure i know is that i treasure friendship and friendship is not a friendshit.. If you guys are offended then i can apologise. Every now and then i say i'm open but i have my own reason and i wish not to explain that.

Who do i share my problems with?? Blog lo...but if anyone do drop by and then read through and then feel offended then do know that this is a place for me to vent / rant / shout / share / & many many more. And so....... maybe what i wrote may hurt you as i'm straighforward and my words are hard to swallow cause that is me. Maybe you don't really understand my feeling or misinterpret as always there's things that people like to misinterpret.

There's no point to play cold war or civil war. For the moment i have no time to play that game as i do have my own problem also and i need to build back my own momentum. I'm stressing that i do treasure friendship and i don't simply make it a havoc what's more a friendship of more than 10 years!!.

So if you still feel i'm the wrong one and i can't express my feelings over here....i have nothing to say. Everything ranting over here i can say that it will make me feel better and then will forget about it. 1st move i've already made i wish not to make the 2nd move cos i do not want to push people.

Thank you and have a nice day. You can choose to see me after 1year geh. hahahaha

Pray for Me

2008-03-03T21:17:00.002+08:00

When the bad time is going on, nothing stops you from getting worse. That is what i'm going through now. I'm in some $$$ problem but that nothing stops me doing what i like, then to add salt into the wound today i banged my partner's car!!! damn!! It's a honda civic some more. I'm in really deep shit thise few weeks.

Conflicts, Misunderstandings, and many many more.....Real bad condition i'm in now but i am still in a positive thinking as i know only positive thinking will bring positive outcome. No point think negatively.

After this bang bang thing i do really look foward to a better day ahead. Everything will be in smoother sailing. Now my pocket is in a very big hole. I almost can't sustain it already. Pray for me.

Paying Off

2008-02-27T00:26:00.002+08:00

The past week has been a nightmare for me. 6 months i've been out of my industry and i'm venturing back into it as there's people bashed me up and asked me to help out so i did. Never imagine that all the hardwork has been paid off. My partner received a call from the XXX company to set up an appointment for further discussion on the project we tendered. I can't let you know which company as alot of people in the industry are dying to get in and also there's competitor i know. This project i did not put much hope in it as there's one company i know is very experienced in do the project so my hope was 50-50 battle. We are really happy about it and expecting some tough battle in the next meeting with them.

Felt abit kembang as this is what i'm experienced in but don't afraid, the other industry i'm in now 100% will not let it go like that as i do not want to disappoint you guys who'd supported me. For now, i need to change some strategy in order to grow more, faster and absorb as much as i could as i see this year is very challenging.

For those of you who think that i'm lying i'm sorry. i don't simply give excuses and if still blaming me i have nothing to say.

Till then i shall wait for the 2nd meeting.

TooLarn

2008-02-17T15:42:00.002+08:00

Seriously here. If anyone thinks that i'm playing a fool overhere call me up and fuck the up side left right down side. I'm being honest here and all the hell i got is blamed. When i say got work to do and i meant it. For what sake i'm running away?

No one tells me the exact details here. Everything i got is just if if if if...nvm nvm nvm...

From now on i will not explain myself, no reason for me to explain.

Ending of Best Buddies??

2008-02-16T00:22:00.002+08:00

I realised something different happens during CNY this year compare to the last few years. Not sure what the problem among us buddies but quite sure there's been boycotting around buddies. Friendship which is more than 10 years are of useless. Where ever they go, i'm not being informed and till i called others up and it backs me up when i ring 2 f riends up.

In which area does that affected till it becomes like these? No idea. Really feel sad about it. When a buddy are down and he is not being supported by buddies around. That's what i call best buddies. What goes around comes around. If any you see this post, honestly i'm very sad to say that i do not give a fuck of who you'll be supporting. Today i've seen true colours of you guys. If you can't let go the past i'm sorry. Life goes on. Till this stage you made me no choice but to not give my trust to you guys. When i don't call, it doesn't means that i don't care or against anyone of you. You know who i am.

Giving positives vibes but in the end what i got? Cold water. No choice but to let it go. I can see that when i'm in good times everyone sticks around me but in not a good time what i get? Hopeless. Humans just like to keep negative thought but not fond memories. Revenge is all in the mind. You need support and advise you have my words. Mana saya punya?

So macam mana?? Makan roti lo..... So this year i'll lay low, silent, rebound back. I don't only have you good buddies to fall on to. Till then, i shall not mix around much anymore.

Oh ya...Apart from this, things turns suddenly in my favour after CNY. It seems like there's some good vibes coming towards me and it really motivates me. New roles new friend and i believe fortune starts to change.

An eagle does not fly in flock but fly alone. To be one of the success person, one need to mix with the best and always do not look down on people irregardless of their position and outlook. You never know who they are.

Addicted

2008-02-09T10:02:00.000+08:00

I'm addicted to Movie Maker!!!!....CNY nothing to do just sat infront of my laptop and did some simple editing. Quite happy as this is the 1st time i'm using video and not still photos.

This is the one i did... Anyway Gong XI Fart Choy!!

Unforgetable 2007

2008-02-05T17:06:00.000+08:00

i made another video from 2007. This is one of the best memories that i have.

Mumbling

2008-02-05T16:43:00.000+08:00

It really feels great when you know a bunch of great new found friends with the same interest, same mind and vision. Passion in diving, do what they like. Living in island. Doing education awareness of nature, helping. Everytime time meetup, we'll talk about happy things and no bad things. Happy things that we are able to spread awareness and happyness.

But i can't join them now. I will join them when people push me harder. I'm following people's instruction. No one is listening to me. My reason is not valid to them. They don't see the passion in me. Another thing is i will not completely let them down for supporting me in that industry. Never will i. I will reach to you should you call me.

Does money that important? I don't forsee that as important eventhough i have huge debts. Call me an artist behaviour. As long as i'm happy then it's alright. No point work for money.

Sharing

2008-01-28T23:23:00.000+08:00

Recently i browsed through a site and found that these quotes are interesting and true. Would like to share it out. Then i pondered myself. It is indeed true.

Considering

2008-01-28T01:05:00.000+08:00

I am considering taking up another job to make myself more busy after CNY...

a Sales industry in vehicle or going back into event management??

I still like event management but i'm in fear of burning out once more..If sales industry then i'll have new challenges.

Enlighten me please??

nahh

2008-01-25T19:59:00.000+08:00

People say i everytime also blog about bad things and complain and complain only...And so i put up a pic. My happy time. This was taken during one of my friend's wedding dinner. Abit siao that night even though there's no wine for the girls.

Actuallyy.....Basically.....quite enjoying also cause this is my frist time going over to kuantan.

If got wine i'm pretty sure it will be more havoc compare to the dinner in seremban/

KK Got God of Wealth

2008-01-18T01:04:00.000+08:00

One evening we went over to Warisan Square in KK that we saw this God of Wealth so i did a pose of helping carry the gold in the hope of receiving more return this year. He one hand so susah hold...so i help carry abit lo.

One thing i like about KK is the place is TOLL-LESS!!! woo hoo~~~.... when they say highway you'll drop your eyes out.

Petrol for RM1.90???

2008-01-17T17:10:00.000+08:00

Can you believe it?? When i went over to Sabah the petrol per litre is RM1.90.!!!! OMFG!!
How the heck it can be like that? How come no one complains? That is so unfair. Negeri Sembilan on cheaper by 1 fucking cent also peopl complain no fair la tis la that la. So the government put back the same price. But how come not in east malaysia?

What does the meaning of Whole COuntry means? Sabah and Sarawak not counted as malaysia? because can korek their resources and get the big money by your yourself??...RM4+++ billion goes to whose pocket?

This image is no fake. So unfair. Negeri Sembilan should get back the original price of RM1.91 then.

Cutted my Hair.

2008-01-17T17:04:00.000+08:00

yo yo...i've got myself hair done and die-ded my hair. Potong short back due to the itchyness of the hanging half long hair.

NewLife

2008-01-15T23:51:00.000+08:00

I'm stucked on what to type again!!!! and i'm lazy to upload the pics from the KK trip as i'm abit lazy today. Gosh...Today supposed to wake up at 5am to attend a meeting at 7am but i was strucked with a bad gastric that was so painfool till i can't move. How?? have to lay on the bed till morning and later work at home before i start my work onsite enduring the mild pain.

Everytime i meet back my friends or friends that i made, all the questions are the same. Why you join Insurance har?? Very disgraceful is it? or is it a no-no industry? Is insurance so feared of till you want to hide? Do you know what is the defination behind insurance and benefit from getting it? Insurance is not only insurance. It is beyond what you think of. You can try go buy your dream car or renew your roadtax and see. Without insurance i can chop off balls if you are able to renew your roadtax with getting an insurance.

Getting an insurance is a good investment as you never know what will happen to you tomorrow even though often said you are healthy. Insurance is not buying for yourself. It's all about the better future and living and lifting off burden from your loved ones. Would you want to see your loved one suffer with great pain while you are up there in heaven looking below but can't do anything? The money that you invested will give them a newlife incase you are gone suddenly without leaving any will behind and i doubt everyone have save enough money for themself.

I've long had a vision of helping people. Helping people in a way that their family and loved ones will not suffer in great sorrow and pain. Providing them with a better life a new life, new hope for a better tomorrow in the event if their loved ones are not around anymore or helping them maximizing their money they invest in investment. Each person i help i believe i am able to give them a new life for their loved ones and in return my cleanse my sin.

I have already visualise that i will have an agency of my own with my agency name of NewLife. Protecting people from critical risk and maximizing their money not like the banks giving peanuts in return. I want to realise my dream of NewLife. Give me a chance to speak to you. Show you the way how it is done by not buta-buta buying a policy for the sake of buying. An undertanding agent will explain and help plan your steps of getting a better policy that better suits you. Others just asking you buy la buy la...this is good for you geh..

If you place your trust on me, the trust will not be broken that is why i join AIA *Trust Us for Life*..

NewLife.....helping you to a better tomorrow.

Now Everyone is in Fear & Everything Need to Pay.

2008-01-12T23:05:00.000+08:00

I'm black in town again!! Back from my trip in KK. Mind you, not Kuala Kangsar but Kota Kinabalu. You know what happened when i landed in LCCT yesterday night? I did not realised my backpack has been tampered/opened till i saw my backpack being reflected on the mirror in gents washroom. That time when i realised i was so bloody pissed off as none in my travel experience as a backpacker encountered such a problem!!

Gardinea... sungguh takut bila lihat macam itu..wwoooo~~~~

This is the first time i'm flying with AirAsia and they gave me a new year pressie to me on that way!! Datuk Tony Fernendaz, I do really admire your AirAsia but your crews has let me down. Giving me bad experience. Giving me fear of travelling with you and supporting datuk. You say Now Everyone Can Fly but your cabin crew are giving us black and long face darker than Justice Pao face for us to see. Nevermind the quality of looks of the crews. The most important thing is the projection carrying the name AirAsia to higher level. Your cabin crew only talk happily and with smile only with their male colleagues on ground. Happily yadda yadda yadda without shame.

Datuk i pray one pray you. Please get your crews fried and kick out of AirAsia and give those people who are more qualified to join under your wings please.

Updates on my KK trip will be soon......

Still in KK

2008-01-09T18:11:00.001+08:00

Still in KK... Just back from Manukan island and Mamutik island. Sad to say it's of bad quality control. update soon. Now waiting for seafood play big ghost!!!