Good Choices: Discernment Leads To Integrity

I got this article from Freda Liu BFM. It's just something to share. Courtesy of Mellissa Laurie Seaman. Kopiright punya.

Good Choices: Discernment Leads To Integrity

Copyright Mellissa Laurie Seaman 2003 All Rights Reserved

We make judgments about people all the time, and they are usually not helpful. “That jerk just cut me off on the freeway!” “That girl is rude.” “That guy is an ignorant fool.” We make our judgments based on rudimentary perceptions and limited experience.

Life experience has taught many of us to be careful about making judgments. We have learned, usually the hard way, that making judgments and having expectations usually leads to disappointment at best. Our judgments close our hearts, and our expectations put limitations on an otherwise limitless future.

But sometimes you Know that something, or someone, is not good for you. Your gut tells you. Your instincts tell you. Your angels whisper in your ear. You can feel it in your heart that this thing, this situation, this relationship – is not right for you. Should you toss away this feeling, this Knowing, because it is a “judgment?” Should you feel guilt for having such seemingly judgmental feelings? No. To do so would be to ignore your powers of Discernment, and to make meaningless the Gift of Free Choice.

Discernment is a skill of Wisdom. To discern the Truth from the Lie, the Right from the Wrong, the Good from the Bad – this, if it is not done from a place of fear, is discernment. Fear is the underpinning of Judgment, as it is the underpinning of all Separation. Discernment is a gift that goes along with the Free Choice we all have. We get to decide what is right for us.

Walking the path with Good Intent for All That Is is the path of Integrity. It brings peace not only to the walker, but to all that surrounds her. It is not the requirement of a religion. It is not the dogma taught as to a child. It is not a restriction on freedom. It is simply the strong recommendation of a Universe that cares about each insignificant human light that walks the Earth and elsewhere. Discernment is the proper use of Freedom to Choose actions that benefit All That Is. This is the substance of Integrity - our birthright, our privilege, and our joy.

The End of The Wonderfool Journey

Masih in moment ni!!! kanasai betul. After having gathered for the last time, we were like having examinations, rushing to finish up the last couple of questions before time's up. hehe.. Rushing for dinner of course. On another hand it felt like we were graduating from high school where we write messages for friends that we may or will lost in contact. Bermacam-macam feelings running around that time. Want to eat also so susah. :P

So officially today is the last day of us gathering for us. We will not know when what how why will ever bring us together again. Feeling now like one part is cry, bercrying, mengcryingkan, dicrykan and another part is happy, so happy, menghappy, terhappy, memperhappykan, sedang diperhappykan. 

Now after reading all the messages from the team, i wanted to blog about it and here i'm stucked writing rubbish.!! 

"8th July 2009 was the day the AWLYMPIC committee met for the 1st time. 4months later, it is coming to a completion... Haven't we had lots of fun together, taking on each other, and very much united as a team? The Finale tomorrow is really about this: UNITY!! Let our team show to them what UNITY is! As they look back on the month of OCT 2009, they will remember what they went through, how they showed up... And they will laugh at themselves, and learn from it! :)

Overall, it has been a very fullfilling and enriching journey, But i still have one little unfinished vision, and that is to have my entire team taking a photo together in that beautiful shirt.. 

It will happen! I say so!" - [October 31st, 2009]

Guess what?!!? We had the full team taking a team photo on the FINALE because he say so! 

"As i recall, i enjoyed each of the meetings i have had with the Team and i always look forward to the next.. Today, i took some time to recollect the learnings for me since we started.

I learnt to trust and allowing the team to take charge. I learnt to let go and have fun, and things don't need to be so serious all the time. I learnt to empower, be compassionate and that everyone is equal. And i learnt to learn too.

I trust  that you're having as much fun and learnings as i am. As you look back, what have you discovered so far? Mind to share? Have a great day ahead! Cheers!" - [Sept 9th, 2009. 7++ in the morning!!]

What i learned during this journey is that how to take responsibility with action. When i take up the challenge to be in the team i never thought about being a taker. All i know was it is a good time for me to contribute. Surely i made some mistakes in between this journey. When mistakes are done, i learned how to reflect and make the next best possible choice and being aware of the mistake that i done, laugh at myself and step to the left and move on. There's no need to share or explain when one does not want to hear what's the next action to do if one doesn't want to hear. Facing up and owning to it, handle it and it's man of honour. 

I learned that i can do focus out and support others when the team needs me. Meaning to say am i a bloody supporter?? gosh!!! Taking swift actions without waiting for people's instruction is the best bet to make the team easy so that rancangan yang tergendala also can untergendalakan and make it run smoothly. Even though i had breakdowns in between the journey, he told me that breakdown is just a condition. Don't use that as an excuse of how i show up. That's true. 

Oh ya, one thing though. Always remember there's no HOPE!! as Hope is a creation by ourself. I'm ever ready since i made and aware of the mistakes i've done. I'm hungry for more!! 

"Sapa tak join AWLYMPIC, RUGI!!!" -[ Tati LP76 Oct 19th, 2009]

That's true!! They'll rugi lor cause even the committee had berlambak-lambak of funs!!  We made them saying this...

"You made this happened! Together WE are ONE!" -[YK LP119 Nov 2nd, 2009] 

"I would like to congratulate all of you for organizing successfully such an awesome event. First ever in Asiaworks, the AWLYMPIC. I can imagine the fun you guys had organizing it, which came along with all the heartache, pain, sweat, and tears. I must say i truly enjoyed every bit of the event that took place. I have benefited very much from it due to the perfect timing of all the events which was held after Hari Raya. Normally, every year, for the whole month of Hari Raya, we would be going to one open house after another; eating, eating, eating and gaining weight, and ended up being grungiee!!! But this year, because of the AWLYMPIC, the focus was shifted. Tournaments every weekend, busy keeping myself healthy and fit. Not to mention, the trainings on weekdays too!!

But what's more important is to see so many people (GLP, non GLP, family members, import atheletes, children) coming together, joining hands, participating in events, Cheering one another, dancing, laughing, screaming, having lots of fun and making thing happen. My relationship with my brother is taken to another level. My relationship with my whole family has turned a new leaf because of the AWLYMPIC.

I simply don't know how to express my gratitude towards Matt and the entire committee members and making this happen. Thank you, thank you, thank you from the bottom of my heart!! Ching Ching, you gave a wonderful speech yesterday during the closing which really melted my heart. I feel tears starting to fill up the corners of my eyes as i write this.

You guys are amazing!

"YOU MADE THIS HAPPEN AND I LOVE YOU!!!"...." -[Iliza LP78 Nov 2nd, 2009]

"Kudos to the entire Committe and Chairman of the AWLYMPIC 2009. It was a HUGE success. GLPs from all over converging again to participate, rekindle and keeping the LP spirit..... and having lots of fun along the way. Even my family enjoyed it. True, we made it happen, but you guys made the stand to make it happen. SALUTE!!!! To all GLPs and current LPs thank you again for the wonderful time. I give my heart to you guys. Hip Hip Hooray!" -[Choo Chee Yuen LP108 Nov 2nd, 2009]

Well these are only just a few messages that we've got. There's alot more. I never knew with such a great team with ever so committed to giving it out the result can touch alot of people. It's truly amazing. If only this world is so ever committed like this. HhhhMmmMmmm.....

Oh yaaa... I did not even thought that i have alot of same messages that i speak with my lungs. hahaha.. and also being so supportive and jumping in. I did not know how i managed to do it and i just go for it. To my teams that is infect with full of lung languages, thank you for supporting me me having me show up during this wonderful journey of 4 freaking months!! You guys gave me the permission to be myself and contribute. Never given up on me and giving the trust on me. I know it's kolot lar! but What The Fark right?!?!?!

I tiau u....We'll be black~~~

Something Is Wrong

Everyone makes mistakes. So do i. I may have disappoint certain people. It's part and parcel of life and most important is how to face it up and overcome it. True that breakdown is just an excuses and how can i show up.

For what i do i'm readily owning up to it because of the result that i have created. People may have place their faith and trust in me and by this little mistakes it may ruin me or even not given the chance. Of course there's no point for me to be at the moment for a long time. It's not wise to do that. Sometimes when one is lost he/she it is easily to create a result that is not what they want.

This year has been a tough year for me and i've never gone through this challenges before. I found that it's really up to me to make it happen. Since it's coming to year end, i don't see anyway that i can't face the challenge as i believe my vision is larger than my small mistakes. Learning from the mistakes that i've done, reflect, make the next step and grow is the essence of life long journey of knowledge.

I know there's no hope. Hope is just by creation and i shall handle it, face it, own it up with my own 2 balls dangling there for me for 27 years.

My vision is larger than mistake. Not much of people know of my this little vision of mine. I had it with me since my secondary which is to give back to the people especially the kids. Be it homeless or school kids. I don't know how long i can achieve it and i surely know it's a challenging vision and it will come through. Only now i got to start from somewhere and not looking at the mistake i've already created.

I'm owning to it.

It's About Fun

Now the Awlympic is over suddenly all the committee is having alot of blues. It's been a very memorable journey for me and the team. Building the Awlympic from nothing to something.

The 1st ever meeting that was on a rainy saturday morning at centre point bandar utama McD. I felt so stranger there as i don't really know them. All the face i've seen before but did not make contact with them. There was Matt, Melissa, Hooi Min, Quek, Sharon, Andrew, Jonathan (i think got), Dianne, Jun Hiong, Leonard, Ching Ching, Chun Beng, Buffy & YJ. Being assigned buddy pairs to work effectively in the end also tak berapa jadi.

Second Meeting there was Lili, Choon Moy & Michael to our edition of the committee. Talk about games and stuffs. Over the time our relationship became closer and bonder due to kena fuck up down left right front and back from chairman and of course non other than taking on each other and also not forgetting supporting each and everyone.

It's not easy to create an Awlympic in a month time but somehow with Matt's leadership we pulled it through. Came to the Balloting day, all of us were so nervous as we have nothing to count on only ourselves as Awlympic is the 1st ever edition that it is created. Response of attendance on the Balloting day was so so but the result was fantastic as the way we want it to be drama happened!! Fun & exciting.

The 1st few games was introduced till the launching of the game in 2 weeks time (roughly around there la). So prior to the launching of Awlympic, again we were nervous like shit. Almost tershit keluar lo. Gementar. Preparations, setting ups and of course the chairman is ever so controlling and kan jiong on what to expect. Bang!! it was a blast on the opening a.k.a launching. Performances and everything. The bar was set so ever damn high till we can't even think of how to do the Finale. God help us!!!...

During the process after the launching, there was of course alot of complaints, grungies, unfairness and the list goes on and on and on.. Everyone had breakdowns prior to their own in-charged events. Due to what? Late submissons, alterations of participants, complaints, securing of venue and so on. Due to the breakdown, the team still goes through the challenges lies ahead of them. From here, our relationship with each other started to bonded. Knowing each other, teasing each other and using the lung to speak.

Every week, the committee were looking forward to the meeting as there's always laughter, fun, & being fucked & laughed at ourselves.

The Vision of Awlympic is all about FUN, LOVE & UNITY if i'm not wrong.

It's a challenge when we are going for competitive and fighting for points as human nature tend to play red black game. Only IF ever each and every single one of us in the heart is pure then we will achieve that. Being said that, I'm sure everyone had the fun, love and united when the Awlympic was going on.

It's not easy to be a committe in Awlympic. We see friends that are close ended up fighting for not doing their part, couples fighting for not in same house, couples fighting for not tagging along to the event, and the dramas berlambak-lambak datang. It's just part and parcel of life. If there's no drama in life, there's no growth in life.

So i think 3 weeks before the Finale, the ghost in committe which is Jun wanted to do something for the finale and of course show something extra for our chairman. As normal she was afraid that most of the committee might not aligned to what she wanted to do so she goes to those that is willing to go extra mile and poison them first. I think her body was so gatal that time that's why she wanna dance.

She proposed that we do a performance during the finale as a surprise for Matt. And so we agreed as per proposed. Ching Ching was the choreographer. We are the konco-konco that is so bloody kayu. As stiff as a Balak. When Ching Ching showed me some moves, my reaction was just staring at her blankly. You know la, i kayu don't know how to dance. So we brainstormed on what song that we want to use and we chose Flashdance- What A Feeling. Then another challenge came. We have no idea on how the whole dance would be. Lagi lagi later and idea popped out that we do a sketch on how the Awlympic started and goes on and then dance.

Brilliant idea i would say! Got props some more!! Matt Voo punya muka also was inside. Topeng only la. So we went to lili's place and did some practice. We belajar for about 6 days. First 2 days was completely like sampah as we were doing funny stuff and adjustments. Some the other few days we learned and dance. Not even a single words of the surprise performance can be leaked out to outsiders and also made known to Matt. Even my girlfriend also did not know it. I tell you it was so hard to keep things from my girlfriend as she is so good at korek shit and we share our lives openly. So basically there is nothing we hide from each other. During the 2 week it was HELL for me!! I wanted to tell her and i can't. She kept asking me got so much of thing to work on the Finale meh? I said yes.

So came to the eve of Finale we went for setting up and woke up bloody early to go to the crime scene and practice but ended up training in office just because of raining. Then later we went to the scene and did the setting up till late. Whole day was there and office and we were of course burned. In the night also it was raining and jam like you wanted to shit but can't shit out! Means jam teruk. Hooi Min invited me for dinner with her family. So nice of her. Super SUpporter la she!

Then went back, and asked my girlfriend what time she'll be going over tomorrow. When she said 10++ am i was so down. Then i asked her she don't want to see the opening? Hinting her to come earlier to see her boyfriend do the performance in the opening. Then she said will come for the opening. Was so ever relieved and gementar. So slept early as i was already very tired. Woke up at 5am, picked up Hooi Min and reach UM to do the last practice. Then went the rest was history!!

The event started as we planned and Matt knows that we are doing something but just don't know what we are going to do. hahaha.. He cried when he saw us dancing!! woohooo...kena killed. So the whole day was fantastic day with the field fulled with water and becak and also everyone of us got Burned! Towards the end we did the closing and medal presentation and overall champion. We invited Nina and the house captains to give a speech gave out the best sportman award. Now, The Best Sportman award got to fulfill the criteria of the Awlympic vision. It's not about winning or losing but it's about jumping in to have fun. It goes to Darren a.k.a Spaceship Korkor.

Then the committee invited up to the stage and then Nina cakap lagi and then we gave asked Matt to stand in front to give a speech and he cried again and we gave him a chairman award!! hahaha.. When he was speaking i was few of the committee was already crying like a baby. Why?? It's the end of our wondeful 4months journey being together and bonded better than super glue. Then we did a mime and taught everyone. Again we corner Matt and did the mime to him and now i pulak beh tahan i cried when we were doing the mime to him. From then on after finishing the last mime we went down the stage all i could do was standing static at a place just to stop my crying. Mana tau people just came and hugged me and the air mata pun come out non stop. Kena lagi when my senior came over and did the sign to me! Then lagi kena when my girlfriend came and hugged me!! adduuhhhh.....

What i learned was that those who made the effort and contributed and sacrificed will tend to cry more and this goes to all the participants and the Awlympic Committee.

Thank you Matt and everyone in Awlympic for giving me trust to become part of the team and supporting me. Giving me the space and chance to grow with you guys. And also truly appreciate my girlfriend was so patient towards me eventhough got abit drama la and we managed to work it out.

Now all i feel is the blues and the music kept playing in my mind!! gosh!! hahaha

It's all about fun in life. No matter who win or lose, as long as we keep support each other everyone will be happy and benefited.

Kena

Go back home kena. Don't go back home also kena. Sick oso lagi kena. Only I can't have feelings.
Feeelings oh oh oh feelingssss....

Type of People. Pt.1

One world one vision one direction one idea and more than one. All of this one have alot of types. Sub categories of people with one idea which is to survive. Who doesn't want to win? but in going for winning, what's there to be learned? What's the value? very subjective i would say.

Value that people are looking forward is enjoy life to have fun. Win by not having fun equals to nothing. This post i would like to pay tribute to a few type of peoples living on earth.

-Kiasu-
~ People who can't afford to lose even once. They only know want to win.

-Kiasi-
~ People who's afraid. Ballsless. Afraid to die.

-Kiawin-
~ People who's afraid of winning.

- Muka Tebal-
~ No matter what people say, scold, toot toot and toot they are not afraid and still go for it. For example " eh join
my team larrr... my team the best u know!!" replied " tooot..how many time i tell u i duwan join your team.. u
very farn lah u. Wan me toot toot n toot u kao kao is it?. gardinea!!" muka tebal replied " nola..where got farn??
me farn mer?? come larr join me lar"

-Indah Water-
~ These people that's in this category is by far the best. I salute you. Often cleaning up shits that people left. Doing
the works that left over half way or when there's trouble the people will call up Indah Water to unsumbatkan their
shits.

-No Hand Tail- (in cantonese "mou sau mei")
~ These people often know how to use things only and do not know how to up keep their or people's or public's
belonging. Example, no sumbat punya barang also at last tersumbat because do not know how to take care of
things.

-Shit Stirer-
~ I like this one. This is like when there's no problem they will stir it till the shit appear with tonnes of it.

-Fire Starter or Blower-
~ They can't live in peace. They like to start some actions and enjoy watching it. The bigger the better.

-Water Blower or SKL-
~ They are the best of the best in talking. it's terbesteded Their cannon is bigger than nuclear bomb. Chicken also
can become pheonix i tell you.

-Cock Talker-
~ They only know how to talk. Shit that is not nice also can talk till can be eaten as pencuci mulut. After finish
talking, when it is required for them to work on it, they will not know how to work on it and they will use the
Cock and Talk to other people to do it for them.

Stay tuned for more.... I'll be posting more of types of people. I'm thinking of what title to put for each type of people.

Good Nite

It's been a long working day. I'm at Seremban at the moment. I've been staring at my laptop the whole day in-fact till now. Just a couple of minutes to rest in between. My eyes are not that comfortable now. Since the infection from the previous incident, my eyes as though is not the same anymore. I feel so not that good. Never mind, i shall call it a day today.

Each and everyone of us punya working style is different and when one is focus in working they will show what ever face or horns. Some will be calm, emotionless, pushy, not patient, patient, niama here and there and the list goes on. Being rigor is good. But being rigor without planning is flying to holland. haha..

I'm stucked on what to write... Good nite.